homophonic ❆ jonas

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[westedge]

on a screen...
right, rin sort of mentioned
um. let me try

[ and he puts his full focus on thinking about shenhe? everything he can, what she looks like, what she sounds like, full-on concentration while sitting in a tree. ]

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[she

can't get up into the tree, but she does appear at the bottom of it, fuzzing into focus. she seems a little amused.]

... Hello, Jonas. [she's not wearing a maid outfit anymore, but she's also not wearing her red ropes! just a comfy outfit instead.]

[westedge]

[ he is aware he can't touch, but he does launch himself out of the tree to hug her anyway. shh. give him a sec. ]

[bindings]

[nooooooo BABY. he can't - touch her, and he probably goes through her a little if he tries, but it doesn't stop her from trying to hug him in return.

the best she can do is pretending, wrapping her arms around him in an approximation of it. she wishes she could. it's okay. she's not going anywhere for now.]

[westedge]

[ he is doing his fucking best!!! which is to say he does find his arms going through her but the attempt is there. there's nothing solid for him to grab. there's nothing solid to feel. it's sort of like the kind of comfort he created in his own head after his mother had passed and his father forgot that both of them had just lost someone important and he had nothing else to latch onto.

so maybe it's more of a self-consoling thing, but he does eventually steps back to politely put some space between them. ]

...sorry, hi. Probably should have said that first.

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[he steps back, and she like, follows him. she doesn't need polite space it's fine. she stands close, and even though he can't really feel her and she can't touch him, she still gently reaches for him, hand on his arm as best as she can.]

It's alright. [she doesn't mind.] Don't apologize.

How are you doing?

[westedge]

[ he can lean against the tree and she can be as close as possible and even if he can't feel the contact, knowing it's there is nice. ]

I'm...you know. Dealing. Last week of this game, right? Figured that's the best anybody can ask for. [ he is not sure he feels like dumping all of his emotions on the floor right now when he's not sure how long he gets to keep shenhe. ]

What about you though? Your letters...kind of had me a little worried about how things have been after your mission.

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[she's going to flicker in and out of existence here and there sometimes, visually, but it's fine. as long as he's got his open your senses menu open she's here.

there's a pause, when he asks that. and then, a flicker of her thoughts, and it's the sound of running on sand, with a fuzzy image of an axe cutting through someone wearing all black, and she looks away.]

I've been alright. [...] Both Rang and Fei Du made sure that I didn't lose my mind entirely.

[westedge]

[ yeah his senses are pinned wide the fuck open my guy.

at the sudden sound and the image his eyes widen just a little before he glances away. right. privacy. ]

...that's good. I'm glad. It's...been hard for everybody, so it's good to know you still had people on your end that could help you through stuff like that.

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[a little nod.]

I have experienced a lot. [...] I decided that I wasn't going to wear my ropes when I died. So far, I have been okay. Sometimes I still feel violent, but it has been easier and easier to control.

[she glances at him.] Did you have people helping you? Your letters to me made it seem like you didn't always, and I was angry about it.

[she may have gotten herself in trouble because of it but it's fine she doesn't regret that.]

[westedge]

[ he looks a little relieved to hear that. ]

I was wondering. I...noticed they were gone, but I wasn't sure how to ask. But that's good. That's great, actually...being able to learn to control it is good progress. [ he's proud, to say the least. ] I think it's easier with time to learn when it's okay to be angry and how to manage it.

[ but...ah. um... ]

...it's fine. A lot of that was me not asking and not wanting to ask because there were too many other things happening, you know? My team and I had each other. That was important. [ until all of the stuff about certain members of his team kept circulating and all of the things about livio hit, at least. ]

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[she watches him for a moment, as he dodges here and there, and then:]

You can be honest with me about how you felt, Jonas. But if you'd rather not talk through it, I understand.

[westedge]

It's not that. [ not really. jonas can address his feelings fine, usually, but. ] I don't know. I just don't think it's fair to put this kind of stuff on other people in this situation because everybody's struggling. I shouldn't have to make sure people are helping me when I want to help people instead.

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I'm not. [she says, with a tilt of her head.] Struggling, I mean.

Being here has been very good for me, actually. I think that all of the living suffered far more than I did. [she kind of feels bad saying this but like. eh. you know.] The only thing I am angry about now is Wolfwood being annoyed with me because I sent Livio a mean message.

[westedge]

[ there's a soft snort because yeah, the living sure are having a Time. he does not disagree.

but he does tilt his head a little at that before he gets too far. he'll revisit the rest in a moment. ]

...what did you say to Livio?

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I told him that he should let my team kill him. But I did not sign it and he did not know who sent it.

[so. it was kind of mean, but she was kind of mad.]

[westedge]

Ah. Yeah, he mentioned that someone wanted their team to kill him. Know that it was you, I'm less surprised nothing came of it. Wolfwood or Vash wouldn't go for it though.

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[she looks annoyed.]

No. They wouldn't. [and a distant thought: If he had killed me, they would have let him go. They let Gerard go, too.]

[westedge]

...are you upset about that? [ obviously she is, but he does want to let her talk about that a bit. ]

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[a pause.]

Yes. Not as much as I was. [...] It was necessary. But I wasn't sad to see Gerard be executed.

[westedge]

I can understand that. I'm pretty sure Simon would have loved to know I'd been caught for what we did to him. [ he is worried about setsu, of course. ] The necessities of this game have been pretty messed up when you think about it. It's a game that asks us to put a value on people's lives and which deaths are most important.

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Yes. It is. And it's stupid. [so there]

Simon hates Froggystyle more than he hates all of you, you know.

[westedge]

[ there's a huff at that because that's very. shenhe. ]

Why, because they framed him for what happened to Lambda? I feel like he doesn't have a leg to stand on since he then turned around and killed his own teammate.

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[a nod.]

... I won't tell you to be nice to him. [because he does suck. but also that's her blorbo, unfortunately.] I think he'd be mad at me if I did, actually.

[westedge]

[ i'm. sorry? help. ]

I don't really have anything to say to him. So that won't be a problem.