Yes. [surprisingly. she doesn't like crowds, she doesn't like the public, but she likes people. she likes the one on one. she likes holding matsui's hand, and sharing a donut with vash, and watching fei du play games in companionable silence, and seeing how far she can push wolfwood before he gets mad. she likes dancing, she likes music, she likes sharing both with nahri in an empty diner in the middle of the afterlife.
she likes the way that alex's face lit up when she suggested they vandalize a building. she likes lambda and rang both getting flustered when she tells them that she cares about them. she likes tucking rin's hair behind his ear and watching him smile, she likes when kaveh and nahida laugh. she liked the way jonas crawled up into a tree with her and promised not to smoke around her.
these are all little flickering, half-imagined thoughts. a life worth living, even when you're dead.
she never had that before coming here.]
I didn't realize how much feeling human meant... connecting with others.
[ it makes sense. he can understand that. and he could agree with that. he doesn't quite catch on to all of the half-imagined thoughts but he can get a sense. ]
That's the whole point of being human, you know? Being able to take care of other people and have them care back and all of that. Connecting with other people is what forces us to feel the full range of emotions. Good and bad.
... My master warned me that it would be like this. [that she should refrain, just in case, but - cloud retainer also had told her that someday, she'd be able to rejoin human society. so...]
I could never feel it, because of my ropes. But now... [she rubs her face a little.] I want.
Then try to take what you can get. [ just as simply.
"I wanted it to get better. For you. And I wish I could make sure it gets better, myself. But it'd be worse to cut yourself off just so things hurt less later."
. . . ]
There's always a risk of things going wrong, but it's not like you can just preemptively cut yourself off from everything just in case. [ the words are a little quiet and stilted, but still sincere. ]
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she likes the way that alex's face lit up when she suggested they vandalize a building. she likes lambda and rang both getting flustered when she tells them that she cares about them. she likes tucking rin's hair behind his ear and watching him smile, she likes when kaveh and nahida laugh. she liked the way jonas crawled up into a tree with her and promised not to smoke around her.
these are all little flickering, half-imagined thoughts. a life worth living, even when you're dead.
she never had that before coming here.]
I didn't realize how much feeling human meant... connecting with others.
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That's the whole point of being human, you know? Being able to take care of other people and have them care back and all of that. Connecting with other people is what forces us to feel the full range of emotions. Good and bad.
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... My master warned me that it would be like this. [that she should refrain, just in case, but - cloud retainer also had told her that someday, she'd be able to rejoin human society. so...]
I could never feel it, because of my ropes. But now... [she rubs her face a little.] I want.
[just, simply. she wants.]
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Then try to take what you can get. [ just as simply.
"I wanted it to get better. For you. And I wish I could make sure it gets better, myself. But it'd be worse to cut yourself off just so things hurt less later."
. . . ]
There's always a risk of things going wrong, but it's not like you can just preemptively cut yourself off from everything just in case. [ the words are a little quiet and stilted, but still sincere. ]