You can't save everyone. [ this comes from her, barely audible. ugh. this is not the day to be saying this. not after yesterday. but it's one of those things that haunts her. ]
You can't help someone that doesn't want it.
[ because then we get into the matsui situation again, or with shenhe, being cursed and uncursed respectively, under the guise of "helping" - and how that did more harm than good. ]
she breathes in... and breathes out. and then very carefully squeezes nahri's hand. she's glad emotionshare isn't a thing anymore, because she's still... matsui, rang - it's still fresh.]
Maybe not. But you're kind enough to try anyway, I think. [...] I'd like to find you a flower.
[help shenhe looks pleased!! it's just a little twitch of the lips, but she's happy.
she will lead nahri along - they're still just walking. but eventually she'll find a flower, something small and pretty and red, and she lets go of nahri's hand so she can go pick it up.]
[ she'll let shenhe go retrieve the flower. she didn't get a very good look at it, but she has a very limited knowledge of flowers anyway, so it's not like she could offer any insightful commentary on it. she briefly dips back into feeling insecure for being lacking in so many areas, but she shakes it before it can really get a hold of her thoughts. she looks for potential grave offerings instead. ]
[ she faces her. her heart skips a beat and she's blushing again. if this were some other internal monologue, she'd give herself a hard time for being so easily won over - because she is, in fact, wholly won over by the gesture. it doesn't have to be grand. it never had to be. she already likes shenhe, but all the little things keep stacking up. what insecurities again?
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You can't save everyone. [ this comes from her, barely audible. ugh. this is not the day to be saying this. not after yesterday. but it's one of those things that haunts her. ]
You can't help someone that doesn't want it.
[ because then we get into the matsui situation again, or with shenhe, being cursed and uncursed respectively, under the guise of "helping" - and how that did more harm than good. ]
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she breathes in... and breathes out. and then very carefully squeezes nahri's hand. she's glad emotionshare isn't a thing anymore, because she's still... matsui, rang - it's still fresh.]
Maybe not. But you're kind enough to try anyway, I think. [...] I'd like to find you a flower.
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[ this seems to pull her out of whatever pity party is happening in her head. she looks at shenhe, then at the ground. ]
Well, we need to make sure there's enough for the others, first.
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[she says, tilting her head.]
It is important to respect the dead, but... you're not just a memory. You can enjoy it now. So I think you should get priority.
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[ well she can't be a little punk about that. ]
...Okay, but just one.
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she will lead nahri along - they're still just walking. but eventually she'll find a flower, something small and pretty and red, and she lets go of nahri's hand so she can go pick it up.]
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which is why when she comes back to nahri a few minutes later, she takes nahri's hand, and tugs her a little so that she'll face shenhe.
a pause, and then she offers her the flower.]
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she takes the flower. ]
Thank you.
[ and it makes her smile, too. ]
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nahri takes the flower, and shenhe tucks her hair behind her ear with her now free hand.]
Of course.
[... a pause, and then she brings nahri's hand up and kisses her knuckles? where the fuck did she learn this]
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Where did you learn to be so sweet?
[ not that she minds it. but this is a far cry from the woman she met a month ago. ]
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Fei Du knows some things. [some. mostly he's an idiot but she likes him anyway.
a pause, and then her nose goes a little pink at the tip.]
I am glad you didn't hate that. [bunsweats okay so maybe she wasn't very confident but she did it anyway]
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[ a pause. ]
And I guess you can tell Fei Du that this worked. [ that damn menace, though nahri likes him too. ]
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[bullies the shit out of him like the menace he is...]
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He knows better than to ask when I can flick him and break a bone. [fei du your calcium]
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Alright, I'll stop teasing you. Why don't we pick those flowers for the memorials?
[ she tucks the flower behind her ear. her massive amounts of hair will ensure that it stays there. ]
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she reaches for nahri's hand again after a while.]
Would you like to go through the city after?
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Hm, let me check my busy schedule. [...] I might be able to find some time to spend with you.
[ she said she'd stop teasing but she is a liar ]