[HELP ARE WE me like i give you the memshare of paraiso and we both die
happy wedding also??????? I GUESS???
anyway. shenhe pulls herself up to stand, tilting her head. her own emotional vibe is actually pretty happy - it's wild, too. the last time emotionshare had been a thing she'd been muted, tucked away. but this time, she feels a little more like a normal person does, bright and - well, sometimes uncertain, like a constant guilt that she's feeling at all.
but regardless.] The greenhouse? No. I'd like to, though.
[HELPWLAPLFESPFLES we can follow the spirit and see what it says about memshares but also that would be hilarious. Thanks though busy weekend wild stuff.
There's a little flicker of curiosity at all these new Shenhe emotions, though! Feeling things in the wild... THE GUILT TOO HELP matching Catholicism.]
I think that you may enjoy it, though it's a little strange...
[Anyway since it's touch week redux too he just holds a hand out to her. PAW HOLD AS THEY GO TO SEE THE PLANTS.]
It's strange? As in strange like how this place is, or strange normally? [like are we talking send a hangman that says believe in fuck or venus fly trap
she immediately and without hesitation takes his hand, not just because it's touch week but because she likes holding his hand. off they go!]
[The way they now hold hands even when it's not touch week TRULY MAKING GREAT STRIDES FOR TWO PEOPLE WHO DIDN'T START THIS GAME OFF AS TACTILE BEINGS. THIS GRAVEYARD IS SO TOUCHY.
But away they go! Matsui smiles a little at the question, faintly amused.]
Strange in the way this place is, but less intense. The plants appear to be largely normal? But they are underground, and also, there is a McDonald's among them.
[HELP YEAH THEY REALLY JUST sometimes you lay in a cuddle pile for 84 years and are like this is fine actually]
... I don't understand the McDonald's. [she assumes it must be funny to someone who isn't her] I'm excited to see the plants, though. Even if they are underground.
Blue. [she says, decisively.] ... I have something that I'd like to tell you, also, but maybe I should do it now before we do the flowers. Just in case.
They're blue companions though BLUE IS A GOOD COLOR!! He nods at her choice, but the rest has him giving her a curious look, the vibes gently reflecting that.]
Ah? ...If you wish to tell me something, then you have my ear, Shenhe.
no, technically this is something that's supposed to happen later in the week but i'm too lazy to start a whole-ass new pc for it so timey wimey time travel shit]
The week that we had to do Buzen's trial. [she starts, hesitating a little.] You were cursed to feel calm. Yes?
[she glances at him.] I was afraid. I thought that you would kill someone. That everybody would vote for you, and that you would be gone, and so would Rang. I was scared to lose you, so I tried to stop it from happening. I didn't realize that it didn't matter.
[because he got eaten by a shark the next day so]
It wasn't because I didn't want you to grieve, or that I thought it inconvenient. [a faint sense of annoyance, and a distant thought of people assume things they shouldn't.]
[NOOOOO Shenhe... There's a little sense of understanding, and something tender. Having his pain and grief taken from him was deeply upsetting, as he'd mentioned once or twice, but Matsui isn't Rang, whose assumptions and the negativity therein had always stemmed from a place of hurt, too.
He had never assumed that it was done out of malicious intent, or because someone simply didn't want to deal with the weight of his sorrow. Even if he hadn't guessed at this particular reason, he had always assumed that it was someone trying to help.
Wordlessly, he'll hold his arms open. He's no Buzen, but he knows when to offer a hug all the same.]
[she watches him hold his arms open, and without hesitation she comes closer and wraps her arms around him. she rests her head on his shoulder and hugs him tightly - it's so much less clumsy than it used to be. she's had practice.
she doesn't say anything either, she just hugs him for a little bit. this is okay.]
[Likewise, he's had plenty of practice with this. His hugs aren't as warm or welcoming, but he holds fiercely, and that alone conveys the emotions he wants to share.
After a few moments, though, he'll speak anyway, with his arms still around her.]
I am sorry... For causing you to be afraid. For things turning out in the way that they did. [Even if they were reunited JUST A WEEK LATER fucking help.] I am not angry. Though I didn't understand the reasoning and it was upsetting to lose my grief, I did not think that it was done out of malice. Now I do understand, and I do not hold your choice against you.
[If anything, there's just that thread of ever-present guilt, because he caused Shenhe to feel like she had to act at all. Because he was so unstable, because he couldn't even pretend that he wanted to live after Buzen's death.
It's funny, because he was already afraid of the fact that some people felt closer to him before any of that unfolded.]
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happy wedding also??????? I GUESS???
anyway. shenhe pulls herself up to stand, tilting her head. her own emotional vibe is actually pretty happy - it's wild, too. the last time emotionshare had been a thing she'd been muted, tucked away. but this time, she feels a little more like a normal person does, bright and - well, sometimes uncertain, like a constant guilt that she's feeling at all.
but regardless.] The greenhouse? No. I'd like to, though.
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There's a little flicker of curiosity at all these new Shenhe emotions, though! Feeling things in the wild... THE GUILT TOO HELP matching Catholicism.]
I think that you may enjoy it, though it's a little strange...
[Anyway since it's touch week redux too he just holds a hand out to her. PAW HOLD AS THEY GO TO SEE THE PLANTS.]
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It's strange? As in strange like how this place is, or strange normally? [like are we talking send a hangman that says believe in fuck or venus fly trap
she immediately and without hesitation takes his hand, not just because it's touch week but because she likes holding his hand. off they go!]
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But away they go! Matsui smiles a little at the question, faintly amused.]
Strange in the way this place is, but less intense. The plants appear to be largely normal? But they are underground, and also, there is a McDonald's among them.
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... I don't understand the McDonald's. [she assumes it must be funny to someone who isn't her] I'm excited to see the plants, though. Even if they are underground.
[yay our world before it exploded....]
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Anyway HERE THEY ARE!! He will lead the way toward some of the red flowers because of course he does.]
They are pleasant to look at, aren't they?
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Yes... I feel like it's been a long time since I've seen any. [she tilts her head.] When I was a child I used to make crowns out of flowers.
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Oh? [He reaches out, too, gently touching one of the petals on a flower. Then, looking at her curiously:] Would you like to make one here?
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[she glances at him with a little smile.] I can make you a red one.
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Allow me to make one for you as well, then. Which color would you like?
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They're blue companions though BLUE IS A GOOD COLOR!! He nods at her choice, but the rest has him giving her a curious look, the vibes gently reflecting that.]
Ah? ...If you wish to tell me something, then you have my ear, Shenhe.
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no, technically this is something that's supposed to happen later in the week but i'm too lazy to start a whole-ass new pc for it so timey wimey time travel shit]
The week that we had to do Buzen's trial. [she starts, hesitating a little.] You were cursed to feel calm. Yes?
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That was one, yes. [HIS BACK TO BACK BOOMERANGED CURSESSS. He doesn't ask what she means; he just waits to see where she's going with this.]
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[she glances at him.] I was afraid. I thought that you would kill someone. That everybody would vote for you, and that you would be gone, and so would Rang. I was scared to lose you, so I tried to stop it from happening. I didn't realize that it didn't matter.
[because he got eaten by a shark the next day so]
It wasn't because I didn't want you to grieve, or that I thought it inconvenient. [a faint sense of annoyance, and a distant thought of people assume things they shouldn't.]
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He had never assumed that it was done out of malicious intent, or because someone simply didn't want to deal with the weight of his sorrow. Even if he hadn't guessed at this particular reason, he had always assumed that it was someone trying to help.
Wordlessly, he'll hold his arms open. He's no Buzen, but he knows when to offer a hug all the same.]
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she doesn't say anything either, she just hugs him for a little bit. this is okay.]
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After a few moments, though, he'll speak anyway, with his arms still around her.]
I am sorry... For causing you to be afraid. For things turning out in the way that they did. [Even if they were reunited JUST A WEEK LATER fucking help.] I am not angry. Though I didn't understand the reasoning and it was upsetting to lose my grief, I did not think that it was done out of malice. Now I do understand, and I do not hold your choice against you.
[If anything, there's just that thread of ever-present guilt, because he caused Shenhe to feel like she had to act at all. Because he was so unstable, because he couldn't even pretend that he wanted to live after Buzen's death.
It's funny, because he was already afraid of the fact that some people felt closer to him before any of that unfolded.]