[Likewise, he's had plenty of practice with this. His hugs aren't as warm or welcoming, but he holds fiercely, and that alone conveys the emotions he wants to share.
After a few moments, though, he'll speak anyway, with his arms still around her.]
I am sorry... For causing you to be afraid. For things turning out in the way that they did. [Even if they were reunited JUST A WEEK LATER fucking help.] I am not angry. Though I didn't understand the reasoning and it was upsetting to lose my grief, I did not think that it was done out of malice. Now I do understand, and I do not hold your choice against you.
[If anything, there's just that thread of ever-present guilt, because he caused Shenhe to feel like she had to act at all. Because he was so unstable, because he couldn't even pretend that he wanted to live after Buzen's death.
It's funny, because he was already afraid of the fact that some people felt closer to him before any of that unfolded.]
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After a few moments, though, he'll speak anyway, with his arms still around her.]
I am sorry... For causing you to be afraid. For things turning out in the way that they did. [Even if they were reunited JUST A WEEK LATER fucking help.] I am not angry. Though I didn't understand the reasoning and it was upsetting to lose my grief, I did not think that it was done out of malice. Now I do understand, and I do not hold your choice against you.
[If anything, there's just that thread of ever-present guilt, because he caused Shenhe to feel like she had to act at all. Because he was so unstable, because he couldn't even pretend that he wanted to live after Buzen's death.
It's funny, because he was already afraid of the fact that some people felt closer to him before any of that unfolded.]