[ she doesn't want to be crying either. alas. she has to let it happen, because fighting it will only result in uglier tears. ]
What will happen?
[ what she said before is still true: she doesn't want shenhe to get hurt. she doesn't want to see her without the ropes. nahri would rather walk through fire than have any of her teammates in harm's way, but she wants to know. needs to know, in case...
[ she goes quiet, pressing her lips together. there's a few deep breaths before she can speak again. ]
Before I came here, something happened. I saw-- I saw someone I care about lose control and go on a rampage. I saw him hurt people. He killed one of my friends.
[ she shakes her head - in part to shake away the memory. she doesn't want shenhe to get the wrong idea, so she forces herself to continue: ] Y-you're not like that, but I--
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I think so. [a pause.] The only thing that I can still clearly feel is anger, sometimes.
[which. sucks. but she's gotten used to it.]
These ropes were to protect both myself and other people from me. But they're not always strong enough. I would never want you to see me without them.
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What will happen?
[ what she said before is still true: she doesn't want shenhe to get hurt. she doesn't want to see her without the ropes. nahri would rather walk through fire than have any of her teammates in harm's way, but she wants to know. needs to know, in case...
she shouldn't even be thinking about that. ]
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and after a moment:]
I don't know. [and that's honest.] When I didn't have them, I hurt myself. I hurt other people. But I was a child, then.
[a sigh.] I didn't want to tell you about this.
[because - nahri said i like you as you are, but she thinks that nahri didn't see the full picture, and now she's afraid.]
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...Then we'll make sure that never happens.
[ that's all she needed to know. there's no fault in shenhe not knowing - nahri believes her. she doesn't need to push for any more than that. ]
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Did I scare you?
[she asks, finally.]
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Before I came here, something happened. I saw-- I saw someone I care about lose control and go on a rampage. I saw him hurt people. He killed one of my friends.
[ she shakes her head - in part to shake away the memory. she doesn't want shenhe to get the wrong idea, so she forces herself to continue: ] Y-you're not like that, but I--
[ no, she's crying again. sorry. ]
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no, but. she understands why that'd be terrifying, and her expression shifts into something softer, sadder. her hands twitch.]
I understand. [she says, after a moment, and then:] You don't have to reassure me.
[a beat.]
If I come closer, will that upset you?
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and then brings her hand up and wipes away some of her tears.]
I never know what to say to crying people. [she says, with a little frown.]
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You don't have to say anything.
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