... Matsui had an extremely strange reaction to blood, last week. Despite how often he talks about it, it was more in line with me. This case was completely bloodless, top to bottom.
That being said, he was injured, and that may have made him leave more evidence - of which there was hardly any. Unless he was preemptively faking it [ pulling a gu yun ] which I don't think is the case, I have to wonder if it was Buzen, instead - or maybe even them both working together. Buzen has the stamina to outlast Rin.
Beyond that... I don't know. Rang was a wreck, yesterday. He was a wreck today too, especially in the middle. He's a wild card. And I think D is the least likely of all of them.
[ my pc log with you is longer than the one with my castmate silence thot
ah.... a good question. ]
Attend the execution. [ his tone and expression are both fairly neutral as he says it, looking out into the park. ] I want to see this through to the end.
his expression doesn't change or slacken even an inch. just the steady motion of his shirt rubbing against the lenses on his glasses, and a long moment of quiet. ]
... I don't particularly want to watch that team implode any further than it already has. [ once again not an answer, but it looks like he's cognizant of it, at least, because after a slight pause - like he has to sort through his mental walls, has to decide if he's going to unlock a trap door made of steel and remove a padlock - ] Pain is a reminder.
[ what is it like? to be able to just admit to things like that? to say i'm not human, something about me is wrong, and to live that way? for fei du, who wears a thousand different faces, it feels like it's impossible. to just admit it would be a crime.
... ]
Better me, I think, than one of them. [ than someone else who it would hurt more. (even if it would hurt him, too, for one reason or another.) better to be the one to take the blame. ] Or something like that.
I don't want D to do it. [ any of them, but especially him. ] Matsui is injured. Buzen could handle it, I suppose, and I'll never understand the idea of honorable deaths, or being the one to make the final blow for the sake of a code, as anything but an outsider. Frankly, I'm not sure if I trust him not to try and die alongside Rang. I don't want to see Ylfa in there. Maybe that's selfish of me.
An unassociated party makes it a little cleaner. Simpler. [ "unassociated", like he wasn't rang's friend. ] Though, in the karma of it all, if this place chooses cruelly, it will end up being Haru.
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[ yeah... yeah.... ]
... I have a theory or two, but we won't know until tomorrow.
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[because it'll be better than just floundering.]
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That being said, he was injured, and that may have made him leave more evidence - of which there was hardly any. Unless he was preemptively faking it [ pulling a gu yun ] which I don't think is the case, I have to wonder if it was Buzen, instead - or maybe even them both working together. Buzen has the stamina to outlast Rin.
Beyond that... I don't know. Rang was a wreck, yesterday. He was a wreck today too, especially in the middle. He's a wild card. And I think D is the least likely of all of them.
[ so. theories. ]
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[she rubs at the bridge of her nose.] I couldn't tell you my guesses. I refused to look.
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[ there were parts of the trial that felt a little different, though. parts about staying dead, but - there's no knowing, really. not until tomorrow.
he tilts his head, glancing over to look at her. ]
Refused to look?
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[...]
To lose any of them would be painful. So I didn't look.
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You've really had a rough few days. [ my poor bird :( ]
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she breathes out.]
Calamity. [she says finally, simply.] It will get worse.
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he's quiet, for a moment. ]
It will. [ never the optimist ] We still have a long way to go.
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she looks at him.]
What will you do tomorrow?
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ah.... a good question. ]
Attend the execution. [ his tone and expression are both fairly neutral as he says it, looking out into the park. ] I want to see this through to the end.
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she doesn't look away.]
Are you upset?
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No.
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Fei Du. [bro even the girl who doesn't know how to lie detect knows you're lying]
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You'll be cross with me, I think.
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[ haha! ]
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I would, also. In fact, I think I'd be more angry if I didn't get to deliver the final blow.
[she has zero leg to stand on]
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I can't say that's all that surprising to hear.
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You are not answering my question.
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[ the answer comes a bit wry, almost idle, as he reaches up to take off his glasses, cleaning the lenses with his shirt. ]
I don't really feel emotions the way normal people do.
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Neither do I. [maybe like she's reminding him. but it makes her look him over for a long moment, and then:] You're hurting yourself again.
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his expression doesn't change or slacken even an inch. just the steady motion of his shirt rubbing against the lenses on his glasses, and a long moment of quiet. ]
... I don't particularly want to watch that team implode any further than it already has. [ once again not an answer, but it looks like he's cognizant of it, at least, because after a slight pause - like he has to sort through his mental walls, has to decide if he's going to unlock a trap door made of steel and remove a padlock - ] Pain is a reminder.
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It can be. [she won't argue that. she shifts.] I am fond of all four of them. They have been... more understanding, than most.
[they understand what it's like to feel inhuman.]
I understand, I think. I wonder if we want to volunteer for the same reasons.
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... ]
Better me, I think, than one of them. [ than someone else who it would hurt more. (even if it would hurt him, too, for one reason or another.) better to be the one to take the blame. ] Or something like that.
I don't want D to do it. [ any of them, but especially him. ] Matsui is injured. Buzen could handle it, I suppose, and I'll never understand the idea of honorable deaths, or being the one to make the final blow for the sake of a code, as anything but an outsider. Frankly, I'm not sure if I trust him not to try and die alongside Rang. I don't want to see Ylfa in there. Maybe that's selfish of me.
An unassociated party makes it a little cleaner. Simpler. [ "unassociated", like he wasn't rang's friend. ] Though, in the karma of it all, if this place chooses cruelly, it will end up being Haru.
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