[ he's almost always softspoken, but there's urgency here. a little bit of desperation. ]
It feels worse because you think you helped cause it. And because it's fresh, but... guilt does that. [ obviously things were not so dire and insane back home in free!land, but he still speaks from some personal experience. ] It makes grief worse.
...Matsui was a victim of how much he loved Buzen. It wasn't what you said to Rang.
and then she nods. she can't exactly... just, you know. she can't just take that and internalize it right away. but she takes it, and she listens. and she squeezes haru's hand, just once.]
... Alright. [a beat.] Alright.
[it's all she can think to say, even as her chest aches.]
[ the one nice thing about downloading emotions straight from another person is that there doesn't need to be a ton of verbal communication. he's no good at talking anyway. listening is enough. understanding each other is enough.
he squeezes back, once, and resumes his loose hold after. ]
Sorry. You shouldn't know what this is like.
[ he hasn't exactly felt catastrophic grief before rin, either. it's a very new, raw emotion. ]
It wouldn't be this hard, if being on different teams really made us enemies.
It is difficult to think of any of you as enemies, different team or not.
[there are a couple of people she dislikes, because it'd be impossible to like everybody for someone like her, but she doesn't think of any of them as enemies.
she keeps that loose hold.]
... You shouldn't know what this is like either. But at least we are not alone.
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It's not your fault.
[ he's almost always softspoken, but there's urgency here. a little bit of desperation. ]
It feels worse because you think you helped cause it. And because it's fresh, but... guilt does that. [ obviously things were not so dire and insane back home in free!land, but he still speaks from some personal experience. ] It makes grief worse.
...Matsui was a victim of how much he loved Buzen. It wasn't what you said to Rang.
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and then she nods. she can't exactly... just, you know. she can't just take that and internalize it right away. but she takes it, and she listens. and she squeezes haru's hand, just once.]
... Alright. [a beat.] Alright.
[it's all she can think to say, even as her chest aches.]
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he squeezes back, once, and resumes his loose hold after. ]
Sorry. You shouldn't know what this is like.
[ he hasn't exactly felt catastrophic grief before rin, either. it's a very new, raw emotion. ]
It wouldn't be this hard, if being on different teams really made us enemies.
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[there are a couple of people she dislikes, because it'd be impossible to like everybody for someone like her, but she doesn't think of any of them as enemies.
she keeps that loose hold.]
... You shouldn't know what this is like either. But at least we are not alone.