I don't think so either. [she says after a moment, with a sigh. she didn't say anything during trial because everybody was so angry about the curses, but - the way she is, she can really only ever see no emotions as a blessing.]
... He was a friend. [but also, more than that:] I don't scare easy. But I have never been so frightened about the potential loss of someone as I have been with Matsui.
[she was really, really worried that he was going to straight up throw himself on his sword.]
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... He was a friend. [but also, more than that:] I don't scare easy. But I have never been so frightened about the potential loss of someone as I have been with Matsui.
[she was really, really worried that he was going to straight up throw himself on his sword.]
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Yeah.
[ there is a creeping apprehension in him now, responding through empathy to what she says. ]
...I'm still worried about him. [ still not convinced he won't throw himself on his sword, actually? ]
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I am, too. I worry that nothing will stop him. [she stares at the tree.] It would mean losing two people I care about at once.
[she knows it's Controversial to admit being a rang liker but like, whatever, it's not like it isn't obvious]
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...I don't want them to go, either.
[ he's not outwardly emotive, but the internal emotions are quite clear: fear, stress, frustration. ]
What are we supposed to do for people who aren't on our team?
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I don't know. [...] Nothing, I suppose.
[but it's clear she doesn't like that answer.]