homophonic ❆ haruka

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squirt

Maybe I misjudged you.

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[squirt]

[ maybe he's in the minority based on the reactions at trial, but: ]

I don't think whoever did it was trying to be awful. [ even if curses are deeply questionable ] I told Matsui once—that it would be easier not to feel anything, sometimes.

[ being human is a pain. ] ...Were you close? To Buzen.

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I don't think so either. [she says after a moment, with a sigh. she didn't say anything during trial because everybody was so angry about the curses, but - the way she is, she can really only ever see no emotions as a blessing.]

... He was a friend. [but also, more than that:] I don't scare easy. But I have never been so frightened about the potential loss of someone as I have been with Matsui.

[she was really, really worried that he was going to straight up throw himself on his sword.]

[squirt]

[ yeah when your emotions are suppressing homicidal tendencies, that's probably the case. ]

Yeah.

[ there is a creeping apprehension in him now, responding through empathy to what she says. ]

...I'm still worried about him. [ still not convinced he won't throw himself on his sword, actually? ]

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[yea!]

I am, too. I worry that nothing will stop him. [she stares at the tree.] It would mean losing two people I care about at once.

[she knows it's Controversial to admit being a rang liker but like, whatever, it's not like it isn't obvious]

[squirt]

[ insanely regrettably, haru is also a rang liker, so this is a nightmare. ]

...I don't want them to go, either.

[ he's not outwardly emotive, but the internal emotions are quite clear: fear, stress, frustration. ]

What are we supposed to do for people who aren't on our team?

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[oooogh. oogh. it's a question that reminds her of buzen. they'd talked about something similar, and there's a little wave of sorrow when he says it.]

I don't know. [...] Nothing, I suppose.

[but it's clear she doesn't like that answer.]