Rang raises an eyebrow at that, but it's mostly from surprise, rather than disappointment or upset. He, of all people, knows how Shenhe felt that night, that even sleep alone wouldn't have solved their agony.]
...I was angry at Rin and D for dying, but I envied them too.
[she thinks about that, like... hard, like she really considers it.]
No. Not right now. [she's less absolutely fucked up. but she is still a little broken in the sense that she's a little more trigger-happy. like killing people is a mercy. like it's better than waking up and laughing, and laughing, and laughing, the way nahri does a little to the left and behind rang.
she's staring at her, instead of rang. staring at nothing.] Would you want to die?
[rang unfortunately recognizes this, these hallucinations aside -- he remembers his own behavior from the week rin died too. he eases a step closer, moving to block the view of whoever shenhe's looking at,]
I'm tempted to say yes. ...But it'll probably upset some people.
[not all though he's sure,]
I know I can ask you though, without you judging me for it.
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Rang raises an eyebrow at that, but it's mostly from surprise, rather than disappointment or upset. He, of all people, knows how Shenhe felt that night, that even sleep alone wouldn't have solved their agony.]
...I was angry at Rin and D for dying, but I envied them too.
[...]
What about now? Would you want to die again?
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No. Not right now. [she's less absolutely fucked up. but she is still a little broken in the sense that she's a little more trigger-happy. like killing people is a mercy. like it's better than waking up and laughing, and laughing, and laughing, the way nahri does a little to the left and behind rang.
she's staring at her, instead of rang. staring at nothing.] Would you want to die?
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I'm tempted to say yes. ...But it'll probably upset some people.
[not all though he's sure,]
I know I can ask you though, without you judging me for it.
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It would upset me if you didn't come back. But yes. [he can ask her.] If you wanted it, I would give it to you, and I wouldn't tell anybody. Anytime.
[without judgement.]