it doesn’t super matter all the graveyard is 10 feet apart at all times so he’ll just turn a corner somewhere to come find her at some point later in the day after all the new deadzos arrive ]
[yeah that's fair it's not like she's hard to find, though she is at the very end of the 10 feet because this is so many people and she's suffering feeling crowded.
she looks up at him when he says her name, and gives him a little nod.]
... Hello, Gerard. Are you alright? [it's. been a weekend!]
[ well it's effect roulette so I'll give you an emotion share which is just the blunt force trauma of relief and guilt at the relief and guilt for saying it out loud to shenhe of all people and fear of something ruining it before it can be over, fear of having to go back to what he was doing before, of dying there in a horrible, drawn out battle they have little chance of winning. i think the feeling is maybe just "vaguely nauseous."
he reaches a hand up to rub at his eyes, sniffling a bit. ]
[oof ough that's a lot of emotions. she - is much more open, these days. her emotions were muted and horrible, trapped underneath a lot of red rope, but these days they aren't so much. it's dangerous, but it's freeing.
but she can take the wham of emotional nausea and just - kind of laugh, a little, quiet and... something. it's all she can do. ]
I'm no expert in social graces, but I think it's a little tactless to ask me. [a beat.] I don't care much for social grace, though.
[she shifts, and rests a hand on his arm.] It's alright. I don't have it in me to be furiously, violently angry with you.
[ he is not a prince charming, so yeah, he's not much up on the whole social grace thing. he was raised in a pond, so sometimes he asks people he's murdered if its okay to feel better about it. anyway its okay, he's just been on the verge of a panic attack all day, but it really does calm him down and feel a little better when she says that. ]
... I don't know what this will look like after, if we'll ever even be able to see each other again, if that's safe or even sane to want, but I'd like to.
[there's actually a little buzz of something - happy? at that? something hopeful.]
I'd like to see you again, too. [...] In better circumstances. I don't know that we'll be able to. It may be a struggle just to bring all of us back, but...
I think you would like Teyvat, if you could come to see it.
[ he probably would? teyvat is a really nice place, apart from all the terrible things that happen there. ]
The Neverafter didn't used to be so terrible. Maybe it won't be again someday. And I really-- I do owe you and Nahri. I'm a Prince, in theory, I have some ability to provide things in better circumstances.
[ He's been invited places too, and just can't really shake the idea that he could somehow give up on the Neverafter. Not with everyone else still there, fighting for it. And Elody, maybe trying to destroy it. ]
It's a difficult choice, sometimes. Being offered a more gentle story.
I think you're a very dutiful person, honestly. At least of what I've seen.
[ yeah. yeah it sucks doesn't it. ]
... When I left the pond and was brought to live in the castle, my feelings were that the only thing I wanted to do for the rest of my life was to have no responsibilities, no cares at all except to enjoy my time, because I had somehow miraculously ended up with all of the things that I had ever wanted. True love, a home, safe behind thick castle walls.
And I forgot, or never learned at all, that those things don't just stay on their own. You do have a duty to care for the things you have, that you love. I didn't, and I lost them because of that. I think Nahri probably feels the same, that she just doesn't want to lose something she loves, or will feel as if she has doomed them because of it.
[it's funny, because she doesn't think of herself as one - but she is, in her own sense. just because it isn't a castle or a kingdom or the fate of the world that she's responsible for doesn't mean she isn't diligent in how she carries out her every day.
she watches him as he speaks, and then:]
I know that you have your responsibility.
... But Teyvat is still open to you. If you ever need a place to go, if you ever find a way there, I will be in Liyue waiting.
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it doesn’t super matter all the graveyard is 10 feet apart at all times so he’ll just turn a corner somewhere to come find her at some point later in the day after all the new deadzos arrive ]
Hello, Shenhe.
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she looks up at him when he says her name, and gives him a little nod.]
... Hello, Gerard. Are you alright? [it's. been a weekend!]
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nodding back. animal to animal communication ... ]
It's-- It's been a weekend. I really thought the worst of it was going to be the part of it where I thought I had destroyed the Universe?
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... Yes, it's hard to get worse than that. [it's a little wry.] It looks like your team may win, though.
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[ he sounds kind of conflicted on this, to be quite honest. what a weird two months. ]
... Is it wrong, if that makes me feel better? That all of it wasn't just-- for nothing?
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No. I don't think that it's wrong. It wasn't for nothing, and that is a relief.
[her thoughts are staticky.]
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he reaches a hand up to rub at his eyes, sniffling a bit. ]
Shit-- It's definitely wrong. It's wrong.
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but she can take the wham of emotional nausea and just - kind of laugh, a little, quiet and... something. it's all she can do. ]
I'm no expert in social graces, but I think it's a little tactless to ask me. [a beat.] I don't care much for social grace, though.
[she shifts, and rests a hand on his arm.] It's alright. I don't have it in me to be furiously, violently angry with you.
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... I don't know what this will look like after, if we'll ever even be able to see each other again, if that's safe or even sane to want, but I'd like to.
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I'd like to see you again, too. [...] In better circumstances. I don't know that we'll be able to. It may be a struggle just to bring all of us back, but...
I think you would like Teyvat, if you could come to see it.
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The Neverafter didn't used to be so terrible. Maybe it won't be again someday. And I really-- I do owe you and Nahri. I'm a Prince, in theory, I have some ability to provide things in better circumstances.
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Nahri is marrying royalty, you know. [...] Hmph. She won't let me kill the man she's supposed to be marrying.
[rude of her tbh]
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I apologize on behalf of royalty ... ? [ he means this. it is sincere. ] Would she be going with you?
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[she says, after a moment.] I don't think so. She wants to take care of her world.
[but like. shenhe would be lying if she said she didn't really, really want nahri to come with her. the triguns, too.]
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[ He's been invited places too, and just can't really shake the idea that he could somehow give up on the Neverafter. Not with everyone else still there, fighting for it. And Elody, maybe trying to destroy it. ]
It's a difficult choice, sometimes. Being offered a more gentle story.
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[but he's not wrong. she sighs.]
I learned what duty felt like, on my mission. I don't care for it.
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[ yeah. yeah it sucks doesn't it. ]
... When I left the pond and was brought to live in the castle, my feelings were that the only thing I wanted to do for the rest of my life was to have no responsibilities, no cares at all except to enjoy my time, because I had somehow miraculously ended up with all of the things that I had ever wanted. True love, a home, safe behind thick castle walls.
And I forgot, or never learned at all, that those things don't just stay on their own. You do have a duty to care for the things you have, that you love. I didn't, and I lost them because of that. I think Nahri probably feels the same, that she just doesn't want to lose something she loves, or will feel as if she has doomed them because of it.
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she watches him as he speaks, and then:]
I know that you have your responsibility.
... But Teyvat is still open to you. If you ever need a place to go, if you ever find a way there, I will be in Liyue waiting.