[ are you sure you're not a fairytale shenhe because horrible things happening to children that don't deserve it is a staple of the genre.
he's very quiet for a bit. he thinks about himself, alone in the pond, ten years old and wondering if his parents even care where he was - and the monster there was just a bird, a regular heron, but he knows the feeling of fear when you're small and something terrifying and inexhaustible wants to consume you.
and he thinks about ylfa. but maybe that's not his story to tell. ]
... You didn't deserve that.
[ its the best thing he can think of to say, really. words kind of fail here. but he knows he thinks he deserves the horrible things that happened to him. he can see some of that in her too. and maybe someone should say that. no child deserves this. ]
[that means that homestuck is also a fairytale by that definition. anyway, she's a little bit of a story, yeah - she has her own opera and everything. close enough. close enough.
she breathes out slow.]
Thank you. [it's what she's defaulted to saying. it's easiest. she tucks her hair behind her ear.] I... I don't think that I did either.
[not as much as she used to, anyway.]
I never spoke to Ylfa about her past much, but even so. I think there is a reason I liked the two of you so much even at the start.
[they have similar threads, weaving tales with tragedy and no real good ending. just open space.]
[ homestuck is a fairytale and the lesson it teaches you at the end is dont believe hussie's lies ]
Okay, good.
[ genuine. he's pretty glad to hear she doesn't think that. ]
I'd heard her say things about it before, but I guess I wasn't ... really listening. [ `I very much so appreciate that, Gerard, but I did blow my family away, and in this timeline, I killed a huntsman.` ] I saw it, this time.
She really admires you. I think you're a lot alike, and um-- you know. More alike than she and I. In the good ways. You're brave. You stand up for people. You take care of those around you. She'll be glad to see you again.
[weh. this makes her sad, and it's clear that it does.]
I didn't, before I came here. [any of those things, she didn't stand up for people or care about them, not really, not until the traveler came along. that was the start. and then she got here, and people were so kind to her, and - she felt like she needed to. i've never thought this way before, and i wonder whether i will continue to think this way, she'd said to yun jin, standing in the remains of her village.
turns out she had. she just needed a little push.]
I think you could be good in those ways, if you tried. [she says, watching him.] I think that you are. It takes someone brave to be willing to take on the role of the villain, the way you have.
[ he flinches a bit at "role of the villain" because, yeah. yeah he sure did. its very far from what his story is supposed to be, isn't it? fairytale princes don't go around murdering their friends for life points. but they probably aren't friends with little wolf girls and feral crane women in the first place either. ]
If I've done all of this, it can't be for nothing. It's very important to me that you get to return to life. Be with Nahri and see Ylfa and your team.
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he's very quiet for a bit. he thinks about himself, alone in the pond, ten years old and wondering if his parents even care where he was - and the monster there was just a bird, a regular heron, but he knows the feeling of fear when you're small and something terrifying and inexhaustible wants to consume you.
and he thinks about ylfa. but maybe that's not his story to tell. ]
... You didn't deserve that.
[ its the best thing he can think of to say, really. words kind of fail here. but he knows he thinks he deserves the horrible things that happened to him. he can see some of that in her too. and maybe someone should say that. no child deserves this. ]
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she breathes out slow.]
Thank you. [it's what she's defaulted to saying. it's easiest. she tucks her hair behind her ear.] I... I don't think that I did either.
[not as much as she used to, anyway.]
I never spoke to Ylfa about her past much, but even so. I think there is a reason I liked the two of you so much even at the start.
[they have similar threads, weaving tales with tragedy and no real good ending. just open space.]
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Okay, good.
[ genuine. he's pretty glad to hear she doesn't think that. ]
I'd heard her say things about it before, but I guess I wasn't ... really listening. [ `I very much so appreciate that, Gerard, but I did blow my family away, and in this timeline, I killed a huntsman.` ] I saw it, this time.
She really admires you. I think you're a lot alike, and um-- you know. More alike than she and I. In the good ways. You're brave. You stand up for people. You take care of those around you. She'll be glad to see you again.
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I didn't, before I came here. [any of those things, she didn't stand up for people or care about them, not really, not until the traveler came along. that was the start. and then she got here, and people were so kind to her, and - she felt like she needed to. i've never thought this way before, and i wonder whether i will continue to think this way, she'd said to yun jin, standing in the remains of her village.
turns out she had. she just needed a little push.]
I think you could be good in those ways, if you tried. [she says, watching him.] I think that you are. It takes someone brave to be willing to take on the role of the villain, the way you have.
[...] You seem sure that she will see me again.
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If I've done all of this, it can't be for nothing. It's very important to me that you get to return to life. Be with Nahri and see Ylfa and your team.
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when he tells her that, she finally smiles a little.]
... I will try to be as sure as you. [she wants that, but also:] So that you can see Ylfa again, too, and that all of your team will be reunited.