homophonic ❆ lambda

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lambda

Thank you for being my friend.

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[diluvian]

[ that makes her smile. she can't help it. there's honesty she doesn't care or want for, but she likes it with shenhe. ]

I don't mind whatever you have to say. You can be upset about whatever you want in front me because I know more than others, you'll acknowledge what you need to.

[ shenhe's doing her best and trying to be considerate in her own way, and even if she does say something that others don't like, she doesn't blame it on others. it's more than lambda can say about most humans. ]

But today, I think you're allowed to be upset about whatever you want in front of anyone because someone you love is dead.

[ didn't she admit that much yesterday? she loves her team. ]

[bindings]

[her shoulders relax, just a little, at the confirmation. a thank you, for letting her be honest.]

Then... I am upset that he's dead. [she says, with a slow exhale.] I do. I love him, and I love Nahri, and I love Vash. And I am angry that I can't be with them to comfort them, as useless at it as I am.

[there's a song stuck in her head, and it's not really words but it is this, drifting in and out.]

I will be glad when this is over.

[diluvian]

Sometimes, the presence of someone you love is enough for comfort.

[ it is for me. when words aren't enough or when there simply aren't any words to say about the situation.

she thinks about suggesting live tweeting messaging her team during the trial but decides against it. ]

This should be the last, and it should be enough.

[bindings]

[she glances over at lambda, with a little sigh.]

Yes. [it should be enough. a pause, and then:] Thank you. I know that we are not... hm.

[she hesitates.] You don't need to think of me as a friend. But I am comforted when you talk to me, anyway.

[diluvian]

[ does.... do you want to be friends?

the way she can't say that aloud. it's not something she's considered much, people maybe thinking they could be friends. she knows she's not an easy person to get along with most times. ]

[bindings]

[a pause, as she kind of just peers at lambda, and then her lips twitch at the corners.]

I'd like to, yes, if you would. [she's socially stupid a lot of the time, but this is easier, after being surrounded by people who haven't hesitated in saying it to her.]

[diluvian]

[ there's a long moment of silence before.... i got tired of writing it every thread, but she's almost always wearing her sunglasses whether she's indoors or outdoors or it's day or night.

she removes her sunglasses and props them on top of her head. ]

... Hmph. Rejoice.

[bindings]

[this is cute lambda is cute

shenhe's thoughts go ??? but lambda didn't turn and stab her or anything, so she assumes this is good. the sunglasses being out of the way feels... important. like when wolfwood did it around her, weeks ago.

... she just faintly animal crossing joy emotes from where she's sitting.]

[diluvian]

[ not lambda and wolfwood being alike in this way,

she just looks away. ]

I don't expect tomorrow to be pleasant, but I'll be around.

[bindings]

[it's very funny]

It won't be. But I will enjoy your company regardless, while you are there.

[diluvian]

I assume you'll also be looking after Fei Du. Don't wear yourself out too much.

[bindings]

He needs a lot of looking after. [she mutters, rubbing her face.] I will do my best.

[diluvian]

He isn't nearly as put together as he wants people to think he is.

[ it's more a matter-of-fact observation than anything else. ]

Others will snitch on you, if you don't.

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He is not. [there's a faint exasperation in her words at that, but -

she looks surprised at the second bit.] They - what?

[diluvian]

Now that most of us have stopped pretending in our messages, it is easier for others to show their concern.

It goes both ways.

[bindings]

... I have been behaving myself.

[mostly]