[she does allow it - it startles her a little, because she doesn't know what lambda is doing at first, but. once she understands, shenhe reaches up to touch the corner of her own eye, unsure. oh. huh.
she hasn't cried since she was six years old. this is new.]
It... it wasn't real. [she says, finally.] They should not have been there in the first place. The fact that history so violently tried to correct itself when it wasn't even true in the first place was...
[cruel? that seems like not a good enough word for it. she just trails off there. she just looks down at herself covered in blood. everything sucks.]
Even if it wasn't real, that doesn't mean you can't still feel something because of it.
[ however much gravity wants to put on this experience, lambda won't deny the tears she's seeing, not when she remembers the last time shenhe cried.
lambda lowers her hand. shenhe is covered in so much blood, and her sleeve can only do so much. ]
It's a bit unnecessary. [ maybe that's not a strong enough word, but it's a true enough word. ] The lessons history tries to teach those meant to save it or preserve it. The lessons that are never learned by the ones who don't have to try keep it. It's heartless.
[ she smiles a little although it's a tinge sad. she thinks about how no one probably wished for this kind of thing, what shenhe went through, but it still happened. ]
You're not as bad as most others. We should get some of this blood off.
[she wants the blood off, yeah. it's easy enough to get that set into motion, once lambda has suggested it. she's easy enough to push. time to get clean.]
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she hasn't cried since she was six years old. this is new.]
It... it wasn't real. [she says, finally.] They should not have been there in the first place. The fact that history so violently tried to correct itself when it wasn't even true in the first place was...
[cruel? that seems like not a good enough word for it. she just trails off there. she just looks down at herself covered in blood. everything sucks.]
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[ however much gravity wants to put on this experience, lambda won't deny the tears she's seeing, not when she remembers the last time shenhe cried.
lambda lowers her hand. shenhe is covered in so much blood, and her sleeve can only do so much. ]
It's a bit unnecessary. [ maybe that's not a strong enough word, but it's a true enough word. ] The lessons history tries to teach those meant to save it or preserve it. The lessons that are never learned by the ones who don't have to try keep it. It's heartless.
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It's heartless. [she agrees.] I would not wish this on anybody.
[she absently just... wipes her hand on her clothes, and then looks up at lambda.]
Thank you. [for caring even a little bit. it makes her feel less alone.]
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You're not as bad as most others. We should get some of this blood off.
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[she wants the blood off, yeah. it's easy enough to get that set into motion, once lambda has suggested it. she's easy enough to push. time to get clean.]