how strange, that it's taken death to meet someone who will voice this sentiment to him, when no one else in his life has ever had, he flashes her a smile -- the cheeky grin that he thinks will inspire a punch to the arm, anything that can give them a sense of normalcy one last time]
I'll take it if there is. Just to spite them.
[spite is a great motivator, for living. it's all rang's ever known]
[he gives her that cheeky grin, and she gives him her usual flat look, and while she doesn't punch him - she does lean over to flick him again, as hard as she can.
even with it being as hard as she can, it still feels halfhearted.]
I think that's all that I can ask for. [she says after a moment, watching him.] Congratulations on being one of the most irritating people I've ever known.
[she says, but there's fondness there. something sad and angry about the injustice of the situation they're in all in one.]
rang thinks it's so strange, and maybe his emotions reflect it too. that the first time he met shenhe, she had disliked him so, and with good reason. and then had understood him in the same breath. and that she is standing here now, still understanding. not telling him an impossible hope, or saying he should get to live.]
Good. I'll be annoyed if someone replaces me.
[HE HOPES THAT HE REMAINS THE MOST ANNOYING!!!!!! because he has nothing left to remember him, and at least he can carve an impression on shenhe in this way (sane)]
...I'll be relying on you tomorrow, Shenhe. Even though I haven't exactly been a big help myself -- I still won't have the patience for anyone who refuses to cooperate.
[there's a pause, and then she just. she just reaches, because it could be her last chance to. she thinks about what kaveh said to her about thinking he had more time as she puts her hand on his arm and holds it, watching him.]
I doubt that anybody will. [she tells him, as far as being replaced.
there's a pang, somewhere - that she promised she'd remember buzen. as long as he was remembered, he'd have really existed. she takes a deep breath.]
I will do what is necessary. [she says, with a little nod.] If you need me, I will help.
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[she just thinks about... like, how ready matsui is to die at any point.]
... I'd like to know the reasoning as well. I don't feel strongly about making it back, so it's hard for me to imagine.
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I can't find it in myself to stop him, honestly. I've already had to fight him for an entire night.
[but also, he's quiet at the second part, then]
I don't feel that strongly about it myself. Living. Though, I think you know that already.
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I think I do. [she agrees, after a moment.] But I'd like you to have the chance, regardless.
[he might not feel strongly about living, but she does, for him.]
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how strange, that it's taken death to meet someone who will voice this sentiment to him, when no one else in his life has ever had, he flashes her a smile -- the cheeky grin that he thinks will inspire a punch to the arm, anything that can give them a sense of normalcy one last time]
I'll take it if there is. Just to spite them.
[spite is a great motivator, for living. it's all rang's ever known]
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even with it being as hard as she can, it still feels halfhearted.]
I think that's all that I can ask for. [she says after a moment, watching him.] Congratulations on being one of the most irritating people I've ever known.
[she says, but there's fondness there. something sad and angry about the injustice of the situation they're in all in one.]
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rang thinks it's so strange, and maybe his emotions reflect it too. that the first time he met shenhe, she had disliked him so, and with good reason. and then had understood him in the same breath. and that she is standing here now, still understanding. not telling him an impossible hope, or saying he should get to live.]
Good. I'll be annoyed if someone replaces me.
[HE HOPES THAT HE REMAINS THE MOST ANNOYING!!!!!! because he has nothing left to remember him, and at least he can carve an impression on shenhe in this way (sane)]
...I'll be relying on you tomorrow, Shenhe. Even though I haven't exactly been a big help myself -- I still won't have the patience for anyone who refuses to cooperate.
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I doubt that anybody will. [she tells him, as far as being replaced.
there's a pang, somewhere - that she promised she'd remember buzen. as long as he was remembered, he'd have really existed. she takes a deep breath.]
I will do what is necessary. [she says, with a little nod.] If you need me, I will help.