[no, that... makes sense to her. she nods a little, tilting her head back to think.]
You will be left behind again, here. It's the nature of this place. [but she thinks he knows that, and it probably doesn't help, so:] ... I understand, though. I wouldn't have done what Matsui and Buzen did, either.
This is why I stood with you, Rang. [...] Because even though you are used to people thinking that you are evil, and even though you encourage it, it hasn't felt true to me since the day you told me about the mountains you used to live in.
[the words tug at something coiled tight in his chest. 'you're more than what you're pretending to be,' despite all evidence to the contrary.
except shenhe had not looked at him with disappointment and grief when he had told her what he'd done to those humans, had not expected him to be a better person in that moment. she had just listened and then seen. if only she had cast her judgement. if only he had kept up the lie. then he could feed his own hatred, and not feel it wick away like water in sand.]
I'd rather be the predator than prey.
[to both being left behind, and to pretending to be the villain]
...That way, it'll hurt less when you have to stand against me.
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You will be left behind again, here. It's the nature of this place. [but she thinks he knows that, and it probably doesn't help, so:] ... I understand, though. I wouldn't have done what Matsui and Buzen did, either.
This is why I stood with you, Rang. [...] Because even though you are used to people thinking that you are evil, and even though you encourage it, it hasn't felt true to me since the day you told me about the mountains you used to live in.
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except shenhe had not looked at him with disappointment and grief when he had told her what he'd done to those humans, had not expected him to be a better person in that moment. she had just listened and then seen. if only she had cast her judgement. if only he had kept up the lie. then he could feed his own hatred, and not feel it wick away like water in sand.]
I'd rather be the predator than prey.
[to both being left behind, and to pretending to be the villain]
...That way, it'll hurt less when you have to stand against me.
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I would also rather be predator than prey. [she says, with a sigh.] And we will have to stand against each other. We aren't on the same team.
Still. I don't see the point in playing the part until I have to. [so... she won't, she thinks.]
It will hurt, pretending differently or no.