... I did. I do. [she says, finally lowering her polearm.] He reminded me of the way I often felt when I was young. He was afraid, and he shouldn't have had to be.
[...his jaw clenches as he looks away -- then he looks right back at Shenhe, as if looking at her is preferable to seeing the alternative]
He was afraid last night. They all were. [a little dully, but without the usual derision that would come from saying this,] None of them wanted it to be them.
I didn't think it would be. We were high up, and I was there. Why go for children when they could have had me?
[makes a strangling emoji motion except not really,
instead he can feel that same vein of bitterness run through him, he feels sick. he wants to say 'this is why i hate humans, all they do is lie and DIE', but a bigger urge compels him to stop, instead]
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... I did. I do. [she says, finally lowering her polearm.] He reminded me of the way I often felt when I was young. He was afraid, and he shouldn't have had to be.
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He was afraid last night. They all were. [a little dully, but without the usual derision that would come from saying this,] None of them wanted it to be them.
I didn't think it would be. We were high up, and I was there. Why go for children when they could have had me?
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An easier target. [she says, simply. her grip tightens.] He told me he couldn't and wouldn't fight back.
[it makes that little fury rush through her again, and she sucks in a sharp breath to push it back down.]
The person who did it wasn't looking for a fight, they were looking for a victim.
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Why did he say that? [finally, after a beat or two, in tones of rising disbelief] Why did he say he wouldn't fight back?
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[which makes him a better person than her, she thinks.]
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instead he can feel that same vein of bitterness run through him, he feels sick. he wants to say 'this is why i hate humans, all they do is lie and DIE', but a bigger urge compels him to stop, instead]
...I don't understand.
[or maybe he does, in all his years of living]
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I wish I understood better than I do.
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[he wants to know, but what will knowing do?]
All that idiot does is piss me off, even now.
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I intend to find an answer. [she says, after a moment.] It may not be an answer I like, but I will find it.