homophonic ❆ alex

[bindings]

alex

I'll tell you when you're being weird.

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[camena]

[ oh! alex waves. ]

I can see you. A little staticky, but... Ghosts usually are. [ okay. ]

[bindings]

I suppose that is what I am, at the moment.

It's good to talk to you face to face. The letters were not enough.

[camena]

Better than the ghosts I'm used to.

I dunno, it was better than nothing? Usually when people are gone they're just gone. [ that sounds. counter-intuitive to her being used to ghosts but don't worry about it. ]

[bindings]

[she catches that inconsistency but. she doesn't ask for now.]

That's true. Ghosts do exist where I'm from, but sentience varies. [...] I'm not sure that we are truly dead. I don't entirely understand everything we've been told. But I think I'm not allowed to say more than that.

[camena]

Mm. The ghosts I'm used to—they start to lose things. Emotions start to blur until all that's left is anger, and...

[ anyway ]

It's alright. I'm sure you guys are telling us everything you can. We just have to trust you.

[bindings]

You don't have to trust us.

[this is a little softer.] But I am glad you seem to. I know that it's been difficult to have to listen to people tell you how to feel and what to do.

[camena]

... It's annoying having people tell us not to be mad or upset. But I don't mind people telling me not to be scared.

[bindings]

[in a tone that suggests Great Annoyance:]

I am also annoyed that people have told you not to be mad or upset.

[camena]

[ she complained about it first but finds it a lot easier to turn around when it's someone else expressing things than herself. ]

Well, it's whatever. We're finally getting good news hearing from you guys more directly, so. Fine.

[bindings]

[grumbles.]

I am still angry with Gerard. [this is a little sullen. but.] We are moving forward. It's all we can do, now.

[camena]

You're allowed to be. It's not like—it's not like feeling angry is bad, it's more about what you do with it.

[bindings]

[I should not tell her what I did to him when he arrived, probably.]

I have been behaving.

[camena]

[ a long pause. it's. fine. ]

I'll take your word for it.

[bindings]

[help]

... It isn't so bad here, you know.

[camena]

Oh yeah? That's good to hear. I always kind of figured things would be kind of okay after the getting there part.

[bindings]

It is nice to not have to solve trials, but I won't... ah, brag about it. I know it's been difficult.

[camena]

No, what? You can brag! I want to hear it was better over there! I'd be happier the better things were for you.

[bindings]

[her lips twitch a little.]

There's a hotel. It's nice, I could have my own room if I wanted it. There are nice clothes, and everybody has always been kind to me. I had missed many of the people here.

Oh, and there's an extensive bookstore of fairy tales. I like it there.

[camena]

Oh, hotels and bookstores are great. Two of the best parts of going anywhere, for sure.

[ 'could' have her own room. ] You wanted a roommate, though?

[bindings]

I will have to tell you about Homestuck.

[moving on] I did, yes. I spent the first few days with... [thinking...] Matsui, Buzen, Hikari, Rin, and Yang Guifei, in the same room. And then Fei Du arrived, so I spent time alternating with him, the previous room, and sometimes with Count D and Rang's room.

[graveyard said we are within 10 feet of each other at all times]

[camena]

Uhhh sure? [ help. did shenhe read homestuck? alex has no idea what homestuck is. ]

Well that's pretty fun. Like a big sleepover! Hopefully with snacks and everything.

[bindings]

[she sure did read homestuck]

It was comforting, if a little stifling. I'm not used to being around a lot of people.

[camena]

[ she's so powerful and i respect her. ]

I get that. Like, being alone kind of sucks... but being around a ton of people can drive you completely crazy sometimes, too.

[bindings]

I don't like crowds. But it didn't always feel like one. Only sometimes.

[camena]

Crowds are fun sometimes. You can kind of disappear in them. But that feeling's just not always... good? And also people are annoying. People can be... so annoying.