So you didn't. [Sasuga.] ...I was angry, when I killed it. But not all of that anger felt like it was mine.
[Just most of it, because he was so very, very incandescent with the rage over Buzen's injury in those moments before all the fire brightness of that fury died out along with him.]
Wow same hat, though! Matsui is just nodding to himself internally like ah, naruhodo. He sees, he sees. That is so much rage for such a tiny person to possess.]
...Leaving it alive wasn't an option.
[Thinking about how technically that monster didn't ever even go after Buzen, Matsui just Matsui'd too hard and Buzen died about it.]
it is a lot of rage for such a tiny person and it has only grown proportional. she nods when he answers with that, resting back against whatever it is they're sitting against. pew or wall.]
Was that where you earned your Vision? [a beat.] The water stone.
But lord that is so much rage SHENHE. It is a pew, though. He will lean back with her after a second, letting go with his cut palm hand so now they're only holding one pawsies.]
Yes. After I climbed out of the pool. [fucking help.] Was it like that for you?
[she's content with just one paw. she kind of likes holding hands, funnily enough. it's just enough contact that makes it feel like she can get away, if she needs to, but still enjoy.
also don't just say climbed out of the pool like you didn't try to drown yourself you dumb sword]
It came to me after... [a pause.] I can't remember how long it was. I fought for a long time, and when I faltered, the gods must have found it amusing enough to let me continue.
[She is so valid, even with her rancid mood. Perhaps especially with her rancid mood.
A few beats of silence pass in which he looks toward the altar, thinking about indifferent gods.]
I can understand. [Gods being indifferent. The Catholicism he's familiar with talks of a mighty god whose anger and love are equally powerful, but he himself is a minor deity who's often quite indifferent.]
...It is difficult to know what people want or need. But it's unfortunate if they don't have the desire to try learning such things.
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Matsui is quiet for a second, before nodding.]
So you didn't. [Sasuga.] ...I was angry, when I killed it. But not all of that anger felt like it was mine.
[Just most of it, because he was so very, very incandescent with the rage over Buzen's injury in those moments before all the fire brightness of that fury died out along with him.]
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... If you were experiencing what I did, I was angry enough to tear the creature apart. I would be the worst thing in that cave. Not it.
[she glances at him, even if he can't see.] I'm glad that you killed it.
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Wow same hat, though! Matsui is just nodding to himself internally like ah, naruhodo. He sees, he sees. That is so much rage for such a tiny person to possess.]
...Leaving it alive wasn't an option.
[Thinking about how technically that monster didn't ever even go after Buzen, Matsui just Matsui'd too hard and Buzen died about it.]
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it is a lot of rage for such a tiny person and it has only grown proportional. she nods when he answers with that, resting back against whatever it is they're sitting against. pew or wall.]
Was that where you earned your Vision? [a beat.] The water stone.
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But lord that is so much rage SHENHE. It is a pew, though. He will lean back with her after a second, letting go with his cut palm hand so now they're only holding one pawsies.]
Yes. After I climbed out of the pool. [fucking help.] Was it like that for you?
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also don't just say climbed out of the pool like you didn't try to drown yourself you dumb sword]
It came to me after... [a pause.] I can't remember how long it was. I fought for a long time, and when I faltered, the gods must have found it amusing enough to let me continue.
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This is such a dire way of thinking of being granted a vision though girl help.]
Are your gods cruel?
[Stated with no particular inflection beyond curiosity. Some gods are. That much isn't surprising.]
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Indifferent. [she says, finally.] They do not always know what their people want. Some don't care to know.
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A few beats of silence pass in which he looks toward the altar, thinking about indifferent gods.]
I can understand. [Gods being indifferent. The Catholicism he's familiar with talks of a mighty god whose anger and love are equally powerful, but he himself is a minor deity who's often quite indifferent.]
...It is difficult to know what people want or need. But it's unfortunate if they don't have the desire to try learning such things.