[HELP. THESE (dana voice) VOID AND VIOLENCE FREAKS.
Matsui will move to approach her where she's sat. i typed sad first that's probably true too. He can understand the vibe! The vibe of simply wanting to collapse from the sheer force of feeling too many feelings.]
Shenhe.
[A quiet call to attention first, in case she didn't hear him approach for some reason. He does move pretty quietly... But he'll alert her to that before he reaches to lightly touch the back of a hand.]
[VOID AND VIOLENCE FREAKS yeah she is here sad you're right
she glances over her shoulder at him when he says her name. it's probably better that he alerts her because she's fidgety, she's still Stressed, even if she is calmer than she was earlier. she doesn't relax when he touches her, but she doesn't pull away, at least.]
... Hello, Matsui. [...] I meant to come find you, but time got away from me.
He can get these vibes, too, considering they're very familiar in that post-battle fervor way. There are some bad feelings that take more than one violent spar session to really shake out.]
That is fine. I... wished to give you some time, anyway. I am not well-suited to helping when a fight is the best thing for a person.
[Which is very funny since he's a sword, but he's also a sword with [redacted] issues.]
[she appreciates the reassurance, anyway. she's still figuring out what is and isn't okay. like, how much anger is acceptable. how guilty is she supposed to feel, how sad is she allowed. how badly will people think of her when she loses her temper.]
A little. [a pause.
and then she rubs at her eyes. there's no tears or anything like that, she isn't really capable of it anymore, but. sometimes it feels like she's going to explode with it.]
[NOOO SHENHE... He closes his eyes for a moment, and then gently brings her hand into his so he can hold it.]
...I am sorry.
[There's nothing that can really ease the pain of being parted from those you love, even if you know they're safe, even if you prefer their safety. Especially when you have to watch them struggle through difficult things without you.]
He'll hold her hand in a way that's loose enough that she could shake it off if she wanted to reclaim the space, but firm enough to show that he's here and present for her, as he can be. TO THE PARK...]
...It is-- a difficult situation. People hurt when they are hurt. Many of them said and did things today which they will come to regret, in some form or another. Hopefully, they will all be able to make amends before their lives on that side come to an end.
[THE PETALS SHUT UP i don't want to hear it boy hagfish]
Yes. [she knows - she knows. if vash or wolfwood or nahri had actually been responsible for something she would've protected them to the end, so... she knows. it's difficult. nobody is winning here.]
It... [another pause.] I just think that it was nice to have someone fight for me.
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Matsui will move to approach her where she's sat. i typed sad first that's probably true too. He can understand the vibe! The vibe of simply wanting to collapse from the sheer force of feeling too many feelings.]
Shenhe.
[A quiet call to attention first, in case she didn't hear him approach for some reason. He does move pretty quietly... But he'll alert her to that before he reaches to lightly touch the back of a hand.]
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she glances over her shoulder at him when he says her name. it's probably better that he alerts her because she's fidgety, she's still Stressed, even if she is calmer than she was earlier. she doesn't relax when he touches her, but she doesn't pull away, at least.]
... Hello, Matsui. [...] I meant to come find you, but time got away from me.
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He can get these vibes, too, considering they're very familiar in that post-battle fervor way. There are some bad feelings that take more than one violent spar session to really shake out.]
That is fine. I... wished to give you some time, anyway. I am not well-suited to helping when a fight is the best thing for a person.
[Which is very funny since he's a sword, but he's also a sword with [redacted] issues.]
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I figured. [it's okay rang is her violence bestie.] I don't think I want you to see me like that, anyway.
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...I would not think any less of you, even if I did. But I can understand that.
[Sometimes you're most comfortable letting all the violent fury out in front of specific people and they're just the ones tasked with that burden.]
Do you feel like some of the pressure has been released?
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A little. [a pause.
and then she rubs at her eyes. there's no tears or anything like that, she isn't really capable of it anymore, but. sometimes it feels like she's going to explode with it.]
I miss Nahri. [):]
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...I am sorry.
[There's nothing that can really ease the pain of being parted from those you love, even if you know they're safe, even if you prefer their safety. Especially when you have to watch them struggle through difficult things without you.]
Having to watch from this side isn't easy.
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No, it isn't. [she says, looking back out at the peals.] I would have stood with her. Vash and Wolfwood did not.
[well, they did, but not in a shenhe-approved way.]
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He'll hold her hand in a way that's loose enough that she could shake it off if she wanted to reclaim the space, but firm enough to show that he's here and present for her, as he can be. TO THE PARK...]
...It is-- a difficult situation. People hurt when they are hurt. Many of them said and did things today which they will come to regret, in some form or another. Hopefully, they will all be able to make amends before their lives on that side come to an end.
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Yes. [she knows - she knows. if vash or wolfwood or nahri had actually been responsible for something she would've protected them to the end, so... she knows. it's difficult. nobody is winning here.]
It... [another pause.] I just think that it was nice to have someone fight for me.
[unapologetically, without fear of consequence.]
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He just nods at that, though. It's a very human thing to feel, and a human feeling that he thinks he can understand.]
She holds you highly in her heart. That much is clear.