As Matsui watches her face, there's something in his expression that softens a little. Though he ultimately views humanity as a doomed tragedy, he can recognize the beauty in things like this, too. The resilience. The ability to unlearn harmful things, and learn anew how to live well.]
It must be somewhat frightening... [Letting those changes happen, after this. Letting people in again.] ...But I am glad, if you've been able to do that.
Yes. [she says, with a tiny laugh, something almost incredulous.] I haven't felt fear since - then, I think.
But once, Wolfwood was angry at me because I told him that I couldn't enjoy the foods here because I wouldn't be able to when I went back, and I felt it. [the fear of disappointing someone.] I felt it when Nahri looked at me like she was scared of me, when I tried to fight Wolfwood.
And I felt it when I heard Buzen had died, for you, and for Rang.
[...]
It translates so easily to anger. I'm trying. You have been very understanding of this.
[He's quiet for a second, listening to all these little moments of pain and reclaimed humanity, listening to the troubles she's run into in the bonds she's allowing to form.
The heart is a terrible burden, but pain and love do come in equal measures - that's often the case, at least.]
...Mm. It would be hypocritical if I didn't understand. Human hearts are fickle and complicated things, after all... Even if you want them to feel a certain way, or you wish to react to them in a certain way, they won't always listen.
[Or often listen, honestly... HEARTS!!!! His mortal enemy.]
Navigating the difficulties of the heart is simply a part of being alive.
[It is one of the many reasons why like 90% of the time he simply doesn't want to be. He has a few more little tethers now, but Buzen is always the biggest one.
THEIR MEMORY ATTACKS HELP Matsui just nods at this, though.]
Yes. Let's.
[He'll let go of her hand just long enough to push himself back to his feet, and then extend it out again.]
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As Matsui watches her face, there's something in his expression that softens a little. Though he ultimately views humanity as a doomed tragedy, he can recognize the beauty in things like this, too. The resilience. The ability to unlearn harmful things, and learn anew how to live well.]
It must be somewhat frightening... [Letting those changes happen, after this. Letting people in again.] ...But I am glad, if you've been able to do that.
[Even in a place like this.]
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But once, Wolfwood was angry at me because I told him that I couldn't enjoy the foods here because I wouldn't be able to when I went back, and I felt it. [the fear of disappointing someone.] I felt it when Nahri looked at me like she was scared of me, when I tried to fight Wolfwood.
And I felt it when I heard Buzen had died, for you, and for Rang.
[...]
It translates so easily to anger. I'm trying. You have been very understanding of this.
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The heart is a terrible burden, but pain and love do come in equal measures - that's often the case, at least.]
...Mm. It would be hypocritical if I didn't understand. Human hearts are fickle and complicated things, after all... Even if you want them to feel a certain way, or you wish to react to them in a certain way, they won't always listen.
[Or often listen, honestly... HEARTS!!!! His mortal enemy.]
Navigating the difficulties of the heart is simply a part of being alive.
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[ugh. what if she doesn't want to navigate the difficulties of the heart, though. it was easier before.
she lets that sink in for a bit, and then:]
... I'd like to go to the park, still, if you'd like to go. [they can be attacked by memories more later.]
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[It is one of the many reasons why like 90% of the time he simply doesn't want to be. He has a few more little tethers now, but Buzen is always the biggest one.
THEIR MEMORY ATTACKS HELP Matsui just nods at this, though.]
Yes. Let's.
[He'll let go of her hand just long enough to push himself back to his feet, and then extend it out again.]