Yeah. He used to tell stories to all the kids in the town I grew up in. He took me in after things broke bad back home. I really hope he's doing okay, I usually have to look out for him.
...When this first happened to me, it felt like I was made strong enough to survive just about anything, but I didn't have anything left to survive for. It seemed really pointless, like I was going on out of habit until I inevitably ran into something stronger than I am.
It's different now, because I know what this is for. I'm like this so I can protect the people who matter to me for a little while.
[it's a little funny how much sense this makes to her, actually, even with how rough around the edges she might be.]
That is a good way to look at it. [she says, thoughtfully.] I'd like to use what I am to protect the people I care about, too. It's taken me longer to figure out than I think it has for you.
If you think about it, in most stories, a monster is the one who decides whether someone gets hurt or gets spared. So if you're the monster, you're also the one who gets to make that decision. At least, that's how I see it.
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[but.] I wouldn't worry about the what-ifs. If he is, you can't do anything about it here.
[she means this is a nice way, but it comes out kind of rude, in her typical fashion.]
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I have to focus for now on what I can do, and figure it out from there.
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Focus on not being erased. I wouldn't want our alliance to be in vain.
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Have you seen the park? There's a tree. [the one tree...]
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You really like trees, don't you?
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More like caregivers. Teachers.
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I don't feel strongly about staying or going.
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But you want to revive yourself, don't you?
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...When this first happened to me, it felt like I was made strong enough to survive just about anything, but I didn't have anything left to survive for. It seemed really pointless, like I was going on out of habit until I inevitably ran into something stronger than I am.
It's different now, because I know what this is for. I'm like this so I can protect the people who matter to me for a little while.
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That is a good way to look at it. [she says, thoughtfully.] I'd like to use what I am to protect the people I care about, too. It's taken me longer to figure out than I think it has for you.
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If you think about it, in most stories, a monster is the one who decides whether someone gets hurt or gets spared. So if you're the monster, you're also the one who gets to make that decision. At least, that's how I see it.
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... You're right. I think that is how I'll see it too. [and then her shoulders ease.] Would you believe me if I said I'm a monster?
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I guess I'd ask what you mean by that, because whether or not I believe you depends on it.
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It isn't a physical affliction, so I wonder if it counts.
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