[very - gingerly, she rests her head on his shoulder. it's like the most hesitant and light gesture in the world, and if he's at all uncomfortable with it she will immediately pull away, but she does it.]
... That is hard to believe. [but.] But I'll have to believe it.
The four of them woke up in a cave. Inside that cave was a monster who wanted nothing more than to consume them. But they refused to die. So they fought the monster for a long time. And when they defeated it, they were granted a Vision.
[a pause.]
This is how I received my Vision, when I was five years old.
[here, she hesitates. this part she hasn't told anybody.]
... If I tell you, I want you to swear that you won't tell anybody else. Not Wolfwood. Not Nahri. Not Livio. [she doesn't want pity, but - she trusts vash, so.]
My mother died when I was very young. I don't remember her much, if at all.
It changed my father. And because it was my fault that my mother died, he decided to take fate into his own hands. He summoned an evil creature. And he gave my life to it, in exchange for her's.
[this is all delivered flatly. there's no emotion to it at all.]
[ If she expected Vash not to react at all, to now wear his heart on his sleeve, then sorry. He's stricken yet not entirely shocked. There have been a myriad of horrors witnessed in his years alive.
[ It's calm, just this, until Vash rattles them both side to side into small shake, a reassuring squeeze to try to wring out whatever lingering sadness that may be there. ]
... I think you deserve to live as much as anyone else.
[ That's his opinion, but he also thinks he's very right. ]
[ Vash truly thinks that's sweet because he's used to his words meaning nothing sometimes. In No Man's Land, only boys who won't listen to affirmations exist. ]
Well, I better live long enough to see that day! Can't miss it.
[ What a good distraction and talk to let them ease off of Rin's death and how that has scarred them both in different ways. ]
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as for the rest, she just. sits down. right on the curb, no more standing.]
... Yes. The one that hurt my friends. [obviously she has some feelings on that.]
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Again, reaffirming. ]
It isn't that you hurt them...
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... That is hard to believe. [but.] But I'll have to believe it.
I don't understand why it was mine.
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It's weird that this happened in the first place. I wonder if the reapers would have an answer.
[ ... ]
Do you mind if I ask about it? Your memories, not the trip.
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[as for the rest:]
I don't mind. You can ask. [she'll tell him what she thinks he needs to know.] Though I don't know where to start.
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But that's too sad to think about for others... Shouldering it alone. ]
Wherever you think is best?
[ Choice is important. ]
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The four of them woke up in a cave. Inside that cave was a monster who wanted nothing more than to consume them. But they refused to die. So they fought the monster for a long time. And when they defeated it, they were granted a Vision.
[a pause.]
This is how I received my Vision, when I was five years old.
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[ There are so many questions here, much worry and concern, but he lowers his voice and tones down the bewilderment. She was just a baby... ]
Why?
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... If I tell you, I want you to swear that you won't tell anybody else. Not Wolfwood. Not Nahri. Not Livio. [she doesn't want pity, but - she trusts vash, so.]
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[ It's her story, after all. He can respect that and her wishes, straight to his grave. ]
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It changed my father. And because it was my fault that my mother died, he decided to take fate into his own hands. He summoned an evil creature. And he gave my life to it, in exchange for her's.
[this is all delivered flatly. there's no emotion to it at all.]
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That's... Terrible.
[ If she expected Vash not to react at all, to now wear his heart on his sleeve, then sorry. He's stricken yet not entirely shocked. There have been a myriad of horrors witnessed in his years alive.
Still. Give him a moment to digest it. ]
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[she tilts her head back. because... yeah. it was horrible. but.]
I survived.
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That's right, you survived... And I'm glad that you did.
[ As long as she got to until arriving here. ]
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she made it here. it's been just a little more of a blessing than a curse, and she wonders how long that'll last.]
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... I think you deserve to live as much as anyone else.
[ That's his opinion, but he also thinks he's very right. ]
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she takes his hand when he says what he does. it's a little hesitant, but she wants to, and wolfwood told her to try to do the things she wanted, so.]
... Thank you. [she says, finally.] I'd like to feel that way. It's easier to try when other people think so.
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[ Vash truly thinks that's sweet because he's used to his words meaning nothing sometimes. In No Man's Land, only boys who won't listen to affirmations exist. ]
Well, I better live long enough to see that day! Can't miss it.
[ What a good distraction and talk to let them ease off of Rin's death and how that has scarred them both in different ways. ]