I'm not going to scold you, you're an adult and those are your affairs, even if I don't like it. But you have to understand that's still an extreme start...
[ A sigh. ]
You got somewhere. That's the point of this, yeah?
[she gives him a long and unimpressed look, because that still sounds like scolding to her, but she doesn't say anything about that particular part.]
I don't know that there's been any point to any of this. [she says, after a moment.] I didn't even die because it was important for one team to win. I died to be taken out of the competition.
I meant got somewhere with being able to control your emotions.
[ But that has him quiet. ]
Gerard told me that you two chose to fight with dignity and all that, so I know you put your all in it. He said he got lucky. I don't think I have a misunderstanding of why it happened... Or why he chose you.
If you wanted to vent about it, I'm here, but I'm guessing you had your time confiding in others over there. Or killing Gerard when he arrived.
[ He guesses this is okay because they don't die-die. ]
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[she says, folding her arms.]
... I've learned to control my emotions a little better. [she'll let herself be a bit proud of that.]
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[ Vash is proud, too. It's hard not to be. ]
You're using methods or something? Or just got a feel for it yourself.
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[a beat.] So I suppose I just got a feel for it. I don't always have the best control, but people don't permanently die here, so it's fine.
[ok]
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long pause]
Nothing. [smooth, shenhe]
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[ IT'S STILL OBVIOUS ]
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You can scold me if you'd like. I don't feel bad about it.
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[ A sigh. ]
You got somewhere. That's the point of this, yeah?
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I don't know that there's been any point to any of this. [she says, after a moment.] I didn't even die because it was important for one team to win. I died to be taken out of the competition.
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[ But that has him quiet. ]
Gerard told me that you two chose to fight with dignity and all that, so I know you put your all in it. He said he got lucky. I don't think I have a misunderstanding of why it happened... Or why he chose you.
If you wanted to vent about it, I'm here, but I'm guessing you had your time confiding in others over there. Or killing Gerard when he arrived.
[ He guesses this is okay because they don't die-die. ]
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[she says, tucking her hair behind her ear. she's quiet for a moment, and then:]
... I don't need to talk about it. I just wasn't ready to go. No amount of talking will fix that.
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[ Vash won't disagree that they didn't lose time, so he smiles a bit sadly. ]
Nahri especially missed you. [ ... ] Got a story there?
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[she's sad that nahri did. a pause.] A story?
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[ He had always been curious. ]
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No. [...] I asked her if she would kiss me again if we are able to touch each other, but I don't know if that counts as what you mean.
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I guess it depends on whether you want it to be that or not.
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... I do. [she says, a little hesitantly.] I think I do. But it may not matter, if we can't see each other again after this.
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[ Stroking his chin, thoughtfully. ]
But that gives one reason to jump for it!
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Does it? [...] Is it worth it?
[to set yourself up for heartbreak, she thinks.]
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I guess it depends. Would you rather think about what could have been? What might have happened?
Sometimes, you have to take a risk.
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she tucks her hair behind her ear.]
... I'm no stranger to risks. [she says finally.] I will think about it. Thank you, Vash.
[a beat.] Is that what you thought about Wolfwood?
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[ He had a feeling if Shenhe was alive she would have started killing. Different risks, but still risks.
With the question, his smile softens... It's fond, though tinged with light sorrow. ]
... I wanted to make use of what time I could have had left with him, but I am hoping for a future, too.
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Do you think that's possible? [she tilts her head.] Is there a way to make it possible?
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