[Not Shenhe and Matsui both having to take their breakdowns on the ground. IT'S FINE.
He probably shouldn't be this shocked, but here he is, being shocked as hell. It's... curious. It's wild. To experience things from someone else this way. And that isn't even touching what he saw.
After a moment, he moves over and kneels down in front of her. If anyone here can straighten back up from something like this, it'd maybe be him (and Buzen).]
[it's alarming how same hat they are sometimes wheeze]
... I don't understand what I saw. [she's not sure what clones are or if that was true or what was going on there and also she doesn't know what to say about her own thing so. this.]
[she brings a hand up to rest on top of his, lightly.]
... If I ask, it is only fair that you can ask, as well. [a beat.] You are... I don't know what they meant by clone. Or not a clone. The clarification.
[He is looking at her, but then looks slightly away.]
We grew up in different eras and with different people around us. The times in which we were raised has given us different personalities. But our bodies are duplicates.
We found out after what you saw... that he was trying to destroy all the humans with a virus. I thought... there was a better way, but in the end... I will be exactly like him, I think. I have already become like him here with what I've done.
Worse perhaps since he had been killed before he could.
After he died, he was reborn again as a child, and now he is my son instead of my father. Grandfather took him to raise. And it will be my duty to impart to him last words, a reminder not to forget our hate for humans.
she thinks that over, for a long moment. there have been so many examples of why humans deserve to be hated, in her life. the biggest monster she's ever met was her father. she thinks about how many people here that she's met have not quite been human, and how they'd been treated.
she frowns.]
Do they deserve it? [hatred. she just wants to know his opinion.]
There really isn't much else for him to do but patiently wait for her to decide what she wants to say. He isn't the type to wander off like an edgy boy anyway.
But likewise, it takes him a bit to respond.]
We think they do. [Which does not explain anything, so he adds:] We are... a race of people from China long ago.
We could commune with animals. We gave the humans their prophecies, and we protected the humans from the destructive ones. We became priest and priestesses.
...But an emperor's advances were rejected by one of the priestesses, and he became so offended he had all of our people killed. Only one managed to escape and ever since, we have vowed to watch every one perish.
[the way count d has like, the same backstory as the swords but also rang. knives-ass motherfucker]
... It surprises me, sometimes, how awful humans can be. [it feels like there are so few that are good people, in her experience.] I can't say I wouldn't have done the same.
I have no other answer to give you, Miss Shenhe. It does not matter what I want. My father left me with a reminder as he died: that hope is useless. And I will give the same reminder to my son later.
It's our duty... to not forget until the last human is gone.
[He smiles slightly, not the usual one which doesn’t reach his eyes. A genuine one.]
I don’t think it’s wrong if you need to leave or hide for a while, if it’s too much. But… it’s good of you to know it’s alright to show how you feel. Whether it’s happy, or angry, or sad.
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He probably shouldn't be this shocked, but here he is, being shocked as hell. It's... curious. It's wild. To experience things from someone else this way. And that isn't even touching what he saw.
After a moment, he moves over and kneels down in front of her. If anyone here can straighten back up from something like this, it'd maybe be him (and Buzen).]
I'm not sure... I'm sorry, Miss Shenhe.
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... I don't understand what I saw. [she's not sure what clones are or if that was true or what was going on there and also she doesn't know what to say about her own thing so. this.]
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Though he probably understands it theoretically more than what she'd be able to understand of his. He reaches out to gently touch her upper arm.]
It... was memories, I think. You don't have to say anything. [If she didn't want to talk about it.] But... you may ask.
[No reason to run and hide now. They're out there.]
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... If I ask, it is only fair that you can ask, as well. [a beat.] You are... I don't know what they meant by clone. Or not a clone. The clarification.
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His lips thin, though he doesn't look sad exactly so much as he looks resigned.]
I'm a replica of my father. It means... I'm not my own person. We are the same. Physically at least.
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We grew up in different eras and with different people around us. The times in which we were raised has given us different personalities. But our bodies are duplicates.
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We found out after what you saw... that he was trying to destroy all the humans with a virus. I thought... there was a better way, but in the end... I will be exactly like him, I think. I have already become like him here with what I've done.
Worse perhaps since he had been killed before he could.
After he died, he was reborn again as a child, and now he is my son instead of my father. Grandfather took him to raise. And it will be my duty to impart to him last words, a reminder not to forget our hate for humans.
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she thinks that over, for a long moment. there have been so many examples of why humans deserve to be hated, in her life. the biggest monster she's ever met was her father. she thinks about how many people here that she's met have not quite been human, and how they'd been treated.
she frowns.]
Do they deserve it? [hatred. she just wants to know his opinion.]
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There really isn't much else for him to do but patiently wait for her to decide what she wants to say. He isn't the type to wander off like an edgy boy anyway.
But likewise, it takes him a bit to respond.]
We think they do. [Which does not explain anything, so he adds:] We are... a race of people from China long ago.
We could commune with animals. We gave the humans their prophecies, and we protected the humans from the destructive ones. We became priest and priestesses.
...But an emperor's advances were rejected by one of the priestesses, and he became so offended he had all of our people killed. Only one managed to escape and ever since, we have vowed to watch every one perish.
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... It surprises me, sometimes, how awful humans can be. [it feels like there are so few that are good people, in her experience.] I can't say I wouldn't have done the same.
[but.]
Do you want to do this?
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...
[He frowns gently and glances away.]
It is something... I cannot run from. It is a duty always to be mine. While I live, when I die, and when I'm once more reborn. It will always be mine.
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That is not what I asked, Count D. [she is unfortunately just like this.]
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I have no other answer to give you, Miss Shenhe. It does not matter what I want. My father left me with a reminder as he died: that hope is useless. And I will give the same reminder to my son later.
It's our duty... to not forget until the last human is gone.
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Hope is not useless. [she says, firmly.] I don't understand this reasoning. You do not want to be like him? So don't.
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It is... not quite so easy as that. But I... understand what you're trying to say, and I thank you.
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Hmph. [she peers at him.] You are the one not making it easy.
... Nahri is just as stubborn. The world is full of minds I can't change.
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And what about you, Miss Shenhe...? What if we wanted something different for you?
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Like what? [she seems surprised. like, what else is there.]
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To be happy.
[He will just say it.]
To know you can show your happiness.
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Oh. [...] Do you want that?
[she knows that her team did, but.]
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Yes, I would like that.
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I - I see. [she looks a little surprised, but also pleased?] ... I will continue to try, then.
I have left my ropes off for a day, now. I think it hasn't been terrible, so far.
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I don’t think it’s wrong if you need to leave or hide for a while, if it’s too much. But… it’s good of you to know it’s alright to show how you feel. Whether it’s happy, or angry, or sad.
That is a part of being human after all.
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