[ unfortunately she gets to feel little threads of worry from him anyway. ]
Yeah. No, I know you will, I'm just. [ he doesn't know how to explain why, exactly, he's worried about this. other than it is pretty obvious considering he tries so hard to be blank himself and fails usually. ]
...maybe I'm worried about what'll happen when the feelings come back. [ if it's overwhelming for her, he means. ]
[ jonas, screaming: WHAT IS HAPPENING. but it's fine. he can do his best to calm down again. ]
I hope it isn't. I hope you're at least allowed to wait until things are over to deal with the backlash in a way that's comfortable. [ also, being destructive during this trial in particular sounds bad. ]
...I don't want to use you like that. That's not really fair either.
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[she trails off. still nothing.]
There's nothing. [not panic, or injustice, or anything at all. her brow furrows slightly.] I suppose this will make it easier tomorrow.
[there's not even any emotion to her voice.]
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...sure. But... [ he's trying to understand. ] I don't get how this just...happened.
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I don't either. [a pause, as she looks at him.] ... I'll be alright.
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Yeah. No, I know you will, I'm just. [ he doesn't know how to explain why, exactly, he's worried about this. other than it is pretty obvious considering he tries so hard to be blank himself and fails usually. ]
...maybe I'm worried about what'll happen when the feelings come back. [ if it's overwhelming for her, he means. ]
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but she can kind of distantly feel the worry, even though she doesn't feel any herself.]
I will find somewhere away from people if it ends up being destructive. [...] If you need someone to take from during trial, I'll be here.
[she can be useful as a zen center, she thinks.]
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I hope it isn't. I hope you're at least allowed to wait until things are over to deal with the backlash in a way that's comfortable. [ also, being destructive during this trial in particular sounds bad. ]
...I don't want to use you like that. That's not really fair either.
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It wouldn't be using me if I agree to it. [she says, looking down at her shark. a pause.] ... Buzen got this for me. Its name is Fate.
[she should be sad here, but she isn't. she can't.]
I wonder if he kept the small car I gave him.
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They're good to have. [ a nod to the shark. ] Buzen struck me as a person who would keep gifts, so I don't doubt it. ...what car?