[ sweet bird!!! that's me not him. but he also seems to think it's a very nice thought and gesture, given the way his face relaxes. ]
...that's...really nice, Shenhe. With everything going on, it's a nice path to take. [ it's one less person to cause harm, at least. he's not like completely untensed, but he does seem to have settled a bit. ] I think you've been doing pretty good so far though.
[ ...hrm. ]
The last few days have just been...really stressful. [ he shakes the carton in his hand, pausing again to look at it. ] I know these are probably bad, but they've been helping for a long time.
[she seems pleased that she could help! she leans a little, looking at him. sometimes she has a bad habit of just staring at people and maintaining that stare without looking in other places to make it less uncomfortable, which is what she's doing now.]
Thank you. [she will take that, and then:] You are already dead. It can't get much worse when it comes to inhaling smoke.
[thanks fire marshal]
... If you would like to talk about it I am good at listening.
[ you know it's fine. he still is okay with her just staring at him even if he's not quite staring back. but he does laugh at the comment. ]
You're right. I'm already dead, so it can't be that bad. [ ... ] You've been really good at listening, but it's been...a weekend. You know? We have a lot of things that've happened but not all of them are related to what happened to Rin. So it feels shitty to think too hard about it.
It does not have to be related to Rin to still be upsetting. But if you don't want to talk to me about it, you shouldn't. [headtilt.] It has been a weekend.
The Rin thing didn't help. [ he can admit that. ] Not that I'm blaming him, it's not like he asked to die. [ we will simply blame spoon instead. ] But some things happened that didn't help.
...things kind of got messy with our team, that's all. I'm still trying to figure out how to fix it.
It doesn't. That just makes it a little worse because I kind of like all of you guys. [ what happened to a-peace. help.
but...hum. ]
It was just a really big fight on Thursday after Setsu got back from...uh. Liyue. I guess. [ he assumes shenhe knows by now.... ] A lot of things were said that I'm not sure what to do, and Alex wasn't even there to try and help so...it's a mess I have to figure out how to clean up when I can barely fix my own problems.
Yeah, um. She told me later, I'm not mad about that anymore. [ "anymore" being the operative. he shifts a little on the branch, a little metallic flash of something glinting from under the lapel of his jacket. ] Plus it seemed dumb to be mad at her about that after she found Rin on Friday.
[ but he thinks about the liyue mission instead. ]
There are some things about what happened to those four that I don't totally understand. Setsu...forgot some things, but they remembered me, I guess because they thought I had been there with them. And someone...changed some things about Kazuki and Setsu both, but it didn't wear off until around the time Setsu came back. Kazuki wasn't planning on staying the night Thursday either but got locked in with us, and it just kind of unraveled from there.
I may be able to clear up parts that don't make sense on that mission. [maybe. she's not sure exactly the details that changed, but you know. waves hands.] As far as I know, someone who looked like you, someone who looked like Shu, and someone who looked like me all were there.
... I'm not sure what to say about the unraveling, though.
And they saw things happen to all three of us. I heard from everyone who went and got a more clear idea of what happened. It's...kind of weird to think they were able to disappear and go somewhere that was a place familiar to some of us.
[ he shakes his head. ]
It's just...drama, I guess. People being upset at people and hurting each other's feelings and not bothering to fix it or even care about clearing the air before someone died Thursday night. I'm going to try to find Kazuki later today to fix things. Setsu and I are still connected by this whole thing that's been affecting everybody and it's both kind of nice since we're already teammates and always around each other and also a little overwhelming because I'm not used to having someone that close all the time. And then Alex asked me last night if I was mad at her and I didn't exactly want to tell her the truth so it's been...a long weekend.
[hoo boy okay that's a lot of feelings for shenhe but she genuinely likes jonas so she... she wants to help. somehow.]
I understand about the space. [she likes alex, but she's been ignoring her red string as best she can sometimes because she cannot be around people All The Time] ... Are all of you working to fix things? Or is it just you?
[ its fine he like. seems embarrassed almost immediately that he's said anything and sort of pauses to think about this. ]
It's...complicated. I don't even know what needs to be fixed. Alex is staying out of it because the stuff with Kazuki and Setsu isn't her problem. Setsu is probably not aware of why Kazuki's actually mad, and neither am I but that's why I want to talk to him.
...however, I am up here trying to get my shit together before I go and do that.
I'm not understanding why Setsu and Kazuki can't just speak to each other to figure out the problem. This should not be your responsibility. Alex is correct. [huff.] You can stay here as long as you want.
Alex is the one who asked me about stuff after already talking to both of them, so... [ a sigh. but he will take his placating pats. ] Thanks.
...sometimes people can't really say things themselves because it's hard for them to express them. I don't know what, exactly, is going on, but I'm not trying to solve the problems between Setsu and Kazuki. I need to fix whatever's going on with Kazuki and me before that.
I don't think destroying each other is the idea he was thinking about. [ gently pointing this out. ] But you got to explain to him what you meant, at least...?
...things are always tense around Thursdays. People react differently, so...as long as your team knows you're probably okay. You apologized to Nahri, too?
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...that's...really nice, Shenhe. With everything going on, it's a nice path to take. [ it's one less person to cause harm, at least. he's not like completely untensed, but he does seem to have settled a bit. ] I think you've been doing pretty good so far though.
[ ...hrm. ]
The last few days have just been...really stressful. [ he shakes the carton in his hand, pausing again to look at it. ] I know these are probably bad, but they've been helping for a long time.
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Thank you. [she will take that, and then:] You are already dead. It can't get much worse when it comes to inhaling smoke.
[thanks fire marshal]
... If you would like to talk about it I am good at listening.
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You're right. I'm already dead, so it can't be that bad. [ ... ] You've been really good at listening, but it's been...a weekend. You know? We have a lot of things that've happened but not all of them are related to what happened to Rin. So it feels shitty to think too hard about it.
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It does not have to be related to Rin to still be upsetting. But if you don't want to talk to me about it, you shouldn't. [headtilt.] It has been a weekend.
[gazes]
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...things kind of got messy with our team, that's all. I'm still trying to figure out how to fix it.
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[a pause.]
What happened? [she assumes he'll just be like fuck off if he doesn't want to answer]
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but...hum. ]
It was just a really big fight on Thursday after Setsu got back from...uh. Liyue. I guess. [ he assumes shenhe knows by now.... ] A lot of things were said that I'm not sure what to do, and Alex wasn't even there to try and help so...it's a mess I have to figure out how to clean up when I can barely fix my own problems.
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... Ah. [sweats internally] Alex was meant to be with you that night but was trapped with us.
[she seems a little guilty.] ... The mission from Liyue was - it left damage. I'm sure that didn't help the fight.
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[ but he thinks about the liyue mission instead. ]
There are some things about what happened to those four that I don't totally understand. Setsu...forgot some things, but they remembered me, I guess because they thought I had been there with them. And someone...changed some things about Kazuki and Setsu both, but it didn't wear off until around the time Setsu came back. Kazuki wasn't planning on staying the night Thursday either but got locked in with us, and it just kind of unraveled from there.
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I may be able to clear up parts that don't make sense on that mission. [maybe. she's not sure exactly the details that changed, but you know. waves hands.] As far as I know, someone who looked like you, someone who looked like Shu, and someone who looked like me all were there.
... I'm not sure what to say about the unraveling, though.
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[ he shakes his head. ]
It's just...drama, I guess. People being upset at people and hurting each other's feelings and not bothering to fix it or even care about clearing the air before someone died Thursday night. I'm going to try to find Kazuki later today to fix things. Setsu and I are still connected by this whole thing that's been affecting everybody and it's both kind of nice since we're already teammates and always around each other and also a little overwhelming because I'm not used to having someone that close all the time. And then Alex asked me last night if I was mad at her and I didn't exactly want to tell her the truth so it's been...a long weekend.
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I understand about the space. [she likes alex, but she's been ignoring her red string as best she can sometimes because she cannot be around people All The Time] ... Are all of you working to fix things? Or is it just you?
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It's...complicated. I don't even know what needs to be fixed. Alex is staying out of it because the stuff with Kazuki and Setsu isn't her problem. Setsu is probably not aware of why Kazuki's actually mad, and neither am I but that's why I want to talk to him.
...however, I am up here trying to get my shit together before I go and do that.
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I'm not understanding why Setsu and Kazuki can't just speak to each other to figure out the problem. This should not be your responsibility. Alex is correct. [huff.] You can stay here as long as you want.
[pat pat.]
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...sometimes people can't really say things themselves because it's hard for them to express them. I don't know what, exactly, is going on, but I'm not trying to solve the problems between Setsu and Kazuki. I need to fix whatever's going on with Kazuki and me before that.
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Hm. [...] Well. I'm told that physically fighting your teammates is not a good way to solve problems, so don't do that.
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Shenhe, is that a thing that happened.
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... No. [don't lie]
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Shenhe... [ DON'T LIE. ]
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Wolfwood and I didn't punch each other Thursday night. We were about to, but we didn't actually.
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Okay. Well, that's a good start. Can I ask why you were so close to punching each other?
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It makes me feel better to destroy things, and he has told me that it helps him, too, even if it's temporary. So. I meant to help.
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[a shift.] I won't do it again. I frightened Nahri.
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...things are always tense around Thursdays. People react differently, so...as long as your team knows you're probably okay. You apologized to Nahri, too?
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