I didn't say we wouldn't go to Teyvat. It's that Alex and I haven't officially decided yet because the last time we tried--[ unfortunately. she just gets a flare of embarrassment before it settles. ]--she didn't want to think about it much until we knew if world traveling was even an option. We haven't talked about it much since then. That's a today conversation.
[ so it's not a no. it's a "i need to see what alex really thinks now that the option's here." ]
Frankly, I don't want her to go back. I can't let her go back. But I don't feel right forcing her to abandon the only home she's ever known just because I don't have any roots myself anymore. She says it's up to me, but I want her to choose because she's...lately, all of the choices she's been able to make have been ones she was forced into. I want this one to be hers, specifically.
[ he wants alex to regain her independence, too. ]
[poor jonas this really isn't his fault that she's like this, she's just asked like four people today and they've been like no actually i have to go home and die so she's just slowly expiring.
she's a bit like ? at the embarrassment, but.]
That is what I told Nahri. [to make a decision for herself, not for her world or for anything or anybody else.] You did not ask for advice on this, and I'm glad because I couldn't give you any. I told Nahri that she was being stupid.
[ help shenhe noooo. also yeah don't worry about the embarrassment she does not need to know that jonas and alex tried to talk about it and then instead got derailed with making out because alex sucks at coping.
I care about you, too. That's the only reason I even brought up Teyvat to Alex the other day. [ so. ] It's still...hard, sometimes, to talk to people about things, even if things seem like things maybe they would understand the same way you do. But that's the thing about you. I never have to question if you care. I hope you never feel like I don't feel the same way.
I know you do. [she could hear it in the letters he sent her, and in the way he spoke to her before she died.] I just wanted you to hear it out loud. I think that you deserve that.
[because so many of the people she cares about never hear it. and she thinks she is one of the only people here who isn't allergic to feelings. she just never had access to them.]
...I appreciate it. Really. You know I never needed that from you, but hearing it is...really nice. Even if we are in the same place later, I don't think people should regret saying these kinds of things to each other.
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I didn't say we wouldn't go to Teyvat. It's that Alex and I haven't officially decided yet because the last time we tried--[ unfortunately. she just gets a flare of embarrassment before it settles. ]--she didn't want to think about it much until we knew if world traveling was even an option. We haven't talked about it much since then. That's a today conversation.
[ so it's not a no. it's a "i need to see what alex really thinks now that the option's here." ]
Frankly, I don't want her to go back. I can't let her go back. But I don't feel right forcing her to abandon the only home she's ever known just because I don't have any roots myself anymore. She says it's up to me, but I want her to choose because she's...lately, all of the choices she's been able to make have been ones she was forced into. I want this one to be hers, specifically.
[ he wants alex to regain her independence, too. ]
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she's a bit like ? at the embarrassment, but.]
That is what I told Nahri. [to make a decision for herself, not for her world or for anything or anybody else.] You did not ask for advice on this, and I'm glad because I couldn't give you any. I told Nahri that she was being stupid.
[in. so many words.]
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instead, he hums at that. ]
And what did Nahri say to that?
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She said I was right and that she will come back with me. [... ok well that's not how the conversation went but it's close enough]
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... I missed her, too. [but she refuses to get sidetracked, here. firmly:] Whatever you decide, Jonas, I care about you.
I want you to know that.
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I care about you, too. That's the only reason I even brought up Teyvat to Alex the other day. [ so. ] It's still...hard, sometimes, to talk to people about things, even if things seem like things maybe they would understand the same way you do. But that's the thing about you. I never have to question if you care. I hope you never feel like I don't feel the same way.
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I know you do. [she could hear it in the letters he sent her, and in the way he spoke to her before she died.] I just wanted you to hear it out loud. I think that you deserve that.
[because so many of the people she cares about never hear it. and she thinks she is one of the only people here who isn't allergic to feelings. she just never had access to them.]
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...I appreciate it. Really. You know I never needed that from you, but hearing it is...really nice. Even if we are in the same place later, I don't think people should regret saying these kinds of things to each other.