[because like, she did too. she went out on her own terms, as much as she was able. she's still mad that gerard put her to sleep, because she is so, so sure she would've won, but. she fought as hard as she could and she left her notes, and she let the people she loves know that she loves them. so it's okay.]
If you have to die, it's better to do it without regrets, as much as you're able. [a brushstroke.
she thinks maybe that both of them didn't do super great in that regard but it is what it is.]
[ in a logical sense, fei du did that. he's guaranteed his own priority, along with wenzhou's, in order to be revived. he's kept wenzhou from being killed. he helped froggystyle get more points, and got vengeance for shenhe by wiping out gerard in the process. he was close to death at home anyway. he could handle it. logically, he'll be just fine.
... but, some regrets are harder to shake. he feels them every time he looks up at that shibuya screen, and not just at wenzhou, but at nahri, at eiden. at people left behind. it leaves him reflective for a moment, quietly paying attention to the brushstrokes instead. ]
We went for a joyride. I thought if I was going to die, I might as well go out the same way people thought I would - and it least if it was a car accident, I was the one driving.
[ that's a joke that's in absolutely godawful taste but sometimes not even shenhe sensitivity training can stop you. ]
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[because like, she did too. she went out on her own terms, as much as she was able. she's still mad that gerard put her to sleep, because she is so, so sure she would've won, but. she fought as hard as she could and she left her notes, and she let the people she loves know that she loves them. so it's okay.]
If you have to die, it's better to do it without regrets, as much as you're able. [a brushstroke.
she thinks maybe that both of them didn't do super great in that regard but it is what it is.]
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[ in a logical sense, fei du did that. he's guaranteed his own priority, along with wenzhou's, in order to be revived. he's kept wenzhou from being killed. he helped froggystyle get more points, and got vengeance for shenhe by wiping out gerard in the process. he was close to death at home anyway. he could handle it. logically, he'll be just fine.
... but, some regrets are harder to shake. he feels them every time he looks up at that shibuya screen, and not just at wenzhou, but at nahri, at eiden. at people left behind. it leaves him reflective for a moment, quietly paying attention to the brushstrokes instead. ]
We went for a joyride. I thought if I was going to die, I might as well go out the same way people thought I would - and it least if it was a car accident, I was the one driving.
[ that's a joke that's in absolutely godawful taste but sometimes not even shenhe sensitivity training can stop you. ]