she's never been a death seeker, not really. the way she's experienced life has always been distant, a series of rules and complex instructions that she had to follow. meditation, restraint, balance. you can't feel. if you feel, you'll hurt people. this is for the good of the world - you can't bring ruin to people like this. watching life happen through a sheet of plastic is how she's been since she was very, very little.
but here, people have been coaxing her away from that. she can eat what she wants. she can watch movies. she can try on clothes. she can spend time with people who mean something to her. it feels like she's getting away with something.
[ cute... what a cute reaction! it's nice to hear shenhe so bright. fei du leans his head back a little to look at her through the visor of his helmet, smiling enough that his eyes are crinkled. ]
It was, wasn't it?
[ ehehe. he loves this race track more than any other location they've ever had. it feels good to have some adrenaline pumping through his veins that's not from suffering. it feels even better driving a fast vehicle that's not giving him flashbacks.
he finally turns the bike off and kicks down the kickstand with his foot, and leans back into the hug, reaching down to pat her hand. ] Helmet was worth it.
[she will stay here for a little bit because she has been trained into liking touch. she's like a stray cat that hisses at you for the first few weeks and then eventually you can't do anything without her sitting on your keyboard.]
The helmet is annoying, but I suppose it is useful. [she's going to take it off with one hand, though.] I can see why you enjoy it, though.
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she's never been a death seeker, not really. the way she's experienced life has always been distant, a series of rules and complex instructions that she had to follow. meditation, restraint, balance. you can't feel. if you feel, you'll hurt people. this is for the good of the world - you can't bring ruin to people like this. watching life happen through a sheet of plastic is how she's been since she was very, very little.
but here, people have been coaxing her away from that. she can eat what she wants. she can watch movies. she can try on clothes. she can spend time with people who mean something to her. it feels like she's getting away with something.
she hugs fei du a bit tightly from behind.]
Yes. [she says, brightly.] That... was fun.
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It was, wasn't it?
[ ehehe. he loves this race track more than any other location they've ever had. it feels good to have some adrenaline pumping through his veins that's not from suffering. it feels even better driving a fast vehicle that's not giving him flashbacks.
he finally turns the bike off and kicks down the kickstand with his foot, and leans back into the hug, reaching down to pat her hand. ] Helmet was worth it.
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The helmet is annoying, but I suppose it is useful. [she's going to take it off with one hand, though.] I can see why you enjoy it, though.
I am glad you have this now.