I think we established that yesterday, with the fireball.
[ he says, with a hint of humor to his tone, a soft joke. he doesn't dislodge shenhe; in fact, after a moment, he shifts to tilt his head to rest on top of hers.
in the end, that's the kind of person he is. someone willing to give it all for the people who he cares about. someone willing to be the bad guy to make sure those who suffer stay safe. but, he can feel shenhe's suffering the same way he feels luo wenzhou's, the kind of thing that shakes him up and reminds him of the guilt of a life it feels like he long since threw away. ]
...I'll try my best. [ an honest answer. fei du isn't one for honesty - he's full of platitudes, especially for pretty girls, sympathy and sweetness, but with shenhe, it's different. he'll try his best, because he knows there's no preventing it. he knows if he's chosen as a target, there's hardly any chance he'll survive. he's not a fighter. he's weak at the sight of blood. it'd be a done deal.
... but he has things to live for, and fei du chooses freedom over wanting to die. ] I will.
[she gives him a little spark of fire, at that. just a burst that runs over her fingers. a warning. but she doesn't move, when he rests his head against her own.
try is all she can ask for. she can't teach him how to fight, how to not recoil at the sight of blood. so she just has to take what she can.]
I will try my best as well. [she murmurs.] Thank you.
[not just for that, but for letting her try and find her way back to being human for a while, safely.]
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[ he says, with a hint of humor to his tone, a soft joke. he doesn't dislodge shenhe; in fact, after a moment, he shifts to tilt his head to rest on top of hers.
in the end, that's the kind of person he is. someone willing to give it all for the people who he cares about. someone willing to be the bad guy to make sure those who suffer stay safe. but, he can feel shenhe's suffering the same way he feels luo wenzhou's, the kind of thing that shakes him up and reminds him of the guilt of a life it feels like he long since threw away. ]
...I'll try my best. [ an honest answer. fei du isn't one for honesty - he's full of platitudes, especially for pretty girls, sympathy and sweetness, but with shenhe, it's different. he'll try his best, because he knows there's no preventing it. he knows if he's chosen as a target, there's hardly any chance he'll survive. he's not a fighter. he's weak at the sight of blood. it'd be a done deal.
... but he has things to live for, and fei du chooses freedom over wanting to die. ] I will.
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try is all she can ask for. she can't teach him how to fight, how to not recoil at the sight of blood. so she just has to take what she can.]
I will try my best as well. [she murmurs.] Thank you.
[not just for that, but for letting her try and find her way back to being human for a while, safely.]