[Okay, well--he probably tore off after Buzen right away, but. Eventually he will come find her and just kind of come and lean on her sadly. He hates this.]
[the thing is she can't even find it in her to be angry, which is wild. she lets him lean, but she's stiff and tense, and very, very focused on breathing evenly.]
... I should have stayed asleep. [she says after a long moment.]
Kaveh was definitely furious earlier--but it's kind of burned out, now, and settled into something like quiet devastation. This is so much worse than last week, somehow, and Rin wasn't even his teammate.]
[Sometimes you get tummyaches and then you're haunted by Rin's weird useless ghost and then you stumble into the right vote on a prayer in a Mcdonald's. It's too much.
He looks down at his hands, at her question. He doesn't really feel like he needs to answer, to be honest--but he shakes his head anyway. He doesn't mind admitting that.]
[if he'll let her, she very gently slips her arm through his, linking them together.]
... It's an unsettling thought. [she doesn't think that wolfwood, vash, or nahri would. though she supposes she doesn't know. which is scary.]
Though I suppose I'm the teammate to worry about. [she says this like. dryly. she shouldn't make light of it but sometimes her team goes no!!! bad shenhe!! and it drives her crazy.]
Truthfully, he knows that Rin's death wasn't "for no reason" either. But he doesn't know what the reason was--and even if he did, it was Rin. He won't pretend he can't see Shenhe acting in violence, especially on someone else's behalf. But she isn't the only one on her team who would, and he doesn't believe she would do something like this.
It's a bold assumption. They are, in essence, still strangers. But Kaveh doesn't think his ability to judge character is that bad.]
He's not a pacifist. There's only so much he can do here, he knows--he can't expect people not to fight for their lives, and he especially can't expect them not to defend themselves.]
Then if you think that day is coming, talk to them. [Her teammates.] Talk to us. [Anyone else she trusts. He's not sure if they can be called friends--wouldn't dare to assume to that familiarity so quickly, for fear of being wrong--but he can provide this, at least.] And we'll go from there.
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week 1, saturday
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... I should have stayed asleep. [she says after a long moment.]
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Kaveh was definitely furious earlier--but it's kind of burned out, now, and settled into something like quiet devastation. This is so much worse than last week, somehow, and Rin wasn't even his teammate.]
It would've been better if you could have.
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Are you alright? [because despite everything, she is worried about him.]
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He looks down at his hands, at her question. He doesn't really feel like he needs to answer, to be honest--but he shakes his head anyway. He doesn't mind admitting that.]
...I talked to Buzen, after.
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I've talked to him as well. What did he say to you?
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[Quietly.]
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[a little sigh.]
He said as much to me, as well. [...] I believe him. But that doesn't change that I'm seeing this place in a new light.
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What he can say is--]
I can't comprehend being betrayed by a teammate like that.
[Nahida would never, and he highly doubts Shu would, either.]
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... It's an unsettling thought. [she doesn't think that wolfwood, vash, or nahri would. though she supposes she doesn't know. which is scary.]
Though I suppose I'm the teammate to worry about. [she says this like. dryly. she shouldn't make light of it but sometimes her team goes no!!! bad shenhe!! and it drives her crazy.]
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I don't think that's true.
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I don't think you'd hurt someone for no reason.
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Not for no reason.
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Truthfully, he knows that Rin's death wasn't "for no reason" either. But he doesn't know what the reason was--and even if he did, it was Rin. He won't pretend he can't see Shenhe acting in violence, especially on someone else's behalf. But she isn't the only one on her team who would, and he doesn't believe she would do something like this.
It's a bold assumption. They are, in essence, still strangers. But Kaveh doesn't think his ability to judge character is that bad.]
Do you think they need to worry about you?
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shenhe doesn't like to lie. if she's put in a position where she feels she needs to act, she will. not a thing in the world could stop her then, but.]
No, not right now. [maybe eventually. maybe never. right now this is the only answer she can give him.]
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He's not a pacifist. There's only so much he can do here, he knows--he can't expect people not to fight for their lives, and he especially can't expect them not to defend themselves.]
Then if you think that day is coming, talk to them. [Her teammates.] Talk to us. [Anyone else she trusts. He's not sure if they can be called friends--wouldn't dare to assume to that familiarity so quickly, for fear of being wrong--but he can provide this, at least.] And we'll go from there.
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[that feels like an acceptable compromise. talk to us. she - she can do that.
she pats his arm.]
I will do that. Thank you, Kaveh.