[that's fair. also, that's a concern that she'd have if she could - she has no way of knowing when this'll come back. if it'll be during trial or not.

but she can kind of distantly feel the worry, even though she doesn't feel any herself.]

I will find somewhere away from people if it ends up being destructive. [...] If you need someone to take from during trial, I'll be here.

[she can be useful as a zen center, she thinks.]